settling down

it's been about 2 days since i've last returned from the land of kimchi.
i'm still busy sorting out my photos and unpacking my loots...

don't worry i'm drafting posts about seoul already.
moving on to day 3 pretty soon so wait for my posts!!!!
i'll do it in batches so hopefully i don't hold up my posts for too long.

pardon me for i have 30kg of luggage and 2866 photos to deal with.
and i'm not exactly feeling very :-) to be back yet....
post-holiday blues are the worst ugh.

anyway i finished exo next door last night and i was crying buckets.

check out my rants on twitter - ugh it was so heartbreaking to watch.

ok time to go pack more stuff.

gotta cease blogging for the night bc gotta wake up early (by early i mean 9am LOL) tmr partly due to air-con servicing oh sighpie.

AND SCREW MY CORK BOARD FELL FLAT ONTO MY TABLE BECAUSE THE STRING GAVE WAY.

brb crying more buckets

zzzz

don't let (life) dull your sparkle

so i realised i haven't really been giving my 101% to blogging something that's meaningful and read-worthy.
no i will not let my linguistic sentiments hit rock bottom right now, i need to revive the spirit of writing fervently!!!!!!!!!!! *throws celebratory confetti*
and that's mainly because there is zero hype in life right now.

so for the past month, i haven't actually really been up to anything interesting.
well, except for the intermittent job-hopping and occasional shopping sprees.
i think as everyone knows, i quit my internship at my fomer web design company for clear-cut reasons.
well, i actually really enjoyed my job because i did a lot of writing and it honestly offered me a decently competent challenge to stretch my creativity to the fullest potential to think about what to write each new day.
i really enjoyed doing corporate profile write-ups for various companies and generating smooth-tongued catchphrases for advertising purposes.
i actually picked up pretty basic yet useful photoshop skills during my attachment too!

when my company actually finally launches their new website - i'll do some free advertisement for them here and claim credit for all the writing that i've done inside heehee. (but it's true - that was my fruit of hard work after 2 months)

so after i fulfilled my 2-month internship, i had the thought of staying on to work at a part-time hourly rate, just like those admin workers at the offices.
as i mentioned in an earlier post, it was unfortunate that the pay didn't live up to my expectations and hence i quit the job!!
it was kind of a pity because i really liked what i was doing.
but i knew i had to be fair to myself - i had to balance passion and pragmatism on a fine line.
so i did myself an unsolicited favour and left.
may consider freelance back there again even after i start uni who knows?



that marked the start of my unemployment for 2 weeks.
and it truly did feel weird because i was so used to a stable income (not substantial though i was still earning more than i spent) and having something to do every single day.
sounds robotic but i did miss having a systematic lifestyle to lead because honestly, with that 2 weeks i did nothing productive, and everything else the opposite.
up till now, all the things that i promised to do after a's - making my 2016 planner, getting up to exercise (hey no wait i semi-fulfilled this) daily (ok wait no) and whatnot are still left unchecked off the list.
basically in summary i spent that 2 weeks of unemployment watching too much running man, fangirling excessively about exo, sleeping like snorlax and well, trying to find a new job.
wow ewww, i actually feel slightly revolted at myself thinking about my indolence then.
what subliminal aversion towards myself lol.

actually i was quite hesitant about working because i was going to fly in a month's time then so i felt
then there was no pressing need to search for work to kill time.
and that brings me to my next point about the only hype/sparkle/excitement/wow factor in my life: my korea trip!!!!!!



god knows how excited i am to be flying in about 2 weeks time. :-)
i have been researching all day every day about seoul since december, and finally, my trip is happening in real life!!!!!!!!!
going to temporarily migrate - as i ineptly call it - to seoul for 17 days in may and i'm actually quite excited.
(i think even vanessa is put off by my overly enthused vibes that i'm radiating everytime i see her, oops)
when i come back rejuvenated from wanderlust, i promise i'll deliver detailed posts coupled with good photos ok?
17 days doesn't sound very long for a super effective therapeutic getaway but then again, spending more than 2 weeks in foreign land... homesickness is inevitable :-(
#seoulfarseoulgood is happening right here right now!!!!!!! (don't laugh at my cheesy hashtag, friends)
D-14 leggo!

okay anyway back to the mundane realities of life - so i am employed now and i just finished my first week of work at a salad bar!!
i didn't really expect much out of this job, the only reason why i initially agreed to work was because they were really in need of people (and partially also because i've always wanted to try working in a salad bar/cupcake shop)
but ultimately i conceded because the pull factor of a warm and fun-loving environment struck me.

my first week at work went pretty well and i must say, the people there are really amazing.
it's a pretty relaxing job i would say, and i felt that this was the place for quintessential domestication ;)
i actually really learn a lot about the kitchen and ingredient preparation, and how to use a lot of the tools.
being an undomestic goddess (like sophie kinsella, oh what deadly influence she has left upon me by indulging in too many of her books oh no), i learnt how to differentiate between a blender and juicer, how to cut pumpkins (holy my arms ache bc it's so tough), how to operate that darned can opener that i have struggled with for years and etc.
so i actually enjoy the exposure i get here in the salad bar.
i'm still in the midst of mastering the art of wrap-making because i am an extreme loser when it comes to stuffing vegetables and its many friends snugly into its outerwear (but an ultimate winner when it comes to eating).
week 1 at work is down and wow, surprisingly i am starting to feel repulsive at the thought of romaine lettuces......
never mind that, i'm just thankful i haven't really caused much of a debacle in the kitchen.
well, exclude the times when i dropped the blender full with carrots and when i absentmindedly added onions into a customer's order when he specifically refused that tear-inducing vegetable...
week 2 of daily work is awaiting me but i know i'll pull through thanks to great companionship! (yay for the familiar faces yx and janice and the new friends i've made)

about to start my tutoring job next week too and guess what, my nightmare is coming true.
the subject i feared most at a levels that left me with abysmal scars is charging right back at me again - chemistry T_T
hopefully i can still cope well enough with the secondary school syllabus...
gotta keep reading up again tomorrow and it's time to revisit the ten-year-series as a good old pal once more.

i am an unlucky girl.

yes, to cut the long story short (because this irritating blogger mobile app really sucks and did not save my post), i am a rare online shopper who just so happened to pop by the zalora store, spent $40, then minutes later i received a flashy email with bizarre gory colors saying:

i think i nearly died........ i seriously just...

yup so i went for browsing round 2 and forked out another $50 to buy more clothes ugh.

so yes that day i earned about $40 but i spent almost $100.

so much for practising prudence -_-

but anyway i can't wait for the clothes to come!!!!!! 

will blog about them when they arrive :-)

oh oh oh!

recently decided (more like i was forced to) to pick up reading.

yes friends you heard that right, I'M READING!!!!!

because i made a little promise to xh that i would pick up reading if i successfully made it into linguistics.

with great power(ful) (statements) comes great responsibility.

so here's to my first book in god-knows-how-long, wordwatching!

yes that was me in a coffee shop a few days back - reading.

picked this out from the library specially a few weeks back because it seems really relevant to my future course of study.

wordwatching is about a man who loves words so much he's inventing his own and trying all ways and means to have them officialized in the dictionary! and so his adventure begins.

(let's see how my adventurous promise of reading will turn out, it's still too early to say)

yup, after i've dramatized my once-unimaginative life, i think that's pretty much i have for the post today.
my schedule for the week ahead is packed to the brim and i don't even want to think about anything else right now :(
the only thing that'll keep me going is probably the pocket money i'll earn for the month that might just be enough to fund a little of my shopping tendencies in korea.
this year i actually finally understand the true meaning of labour day hohoho.

time to go now, i'll update this space again soon!
probably before i fly.

one last piece of advice - if you feel like you've lost your sparkle in life, find one.
just like how i did.



see you kids real soon. ;)

hello

just dropping by for a quick update!!!
hello hello to my little blog whom i haven't seen in a month plus again.
don't worry i didn't forget about you.

don't really have much to tell you guys about actually.
been really preoccupied with work most of the time so life is pretty mundane.
did i mention before that i really like my job rn because i get to do something i enjoy?
so yes i'm currently intern-ing at a small web design/e-commerce company and hopefully i'll move on to part-timing at an (increased) hourly rate...
really like my job but if the pay persists i guess i'm just gonna call it quits.

so yeah there's honestly nothing really nice to talk about my life rn except for the fact that i'm working...
oh yes and may is the month to look forward to because korea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so damn excited omg.

and guess what i've become hooked onto exo.
do kyungsoo is bae.
yes ok bye.

this was a completely rubbish post.

post-a's + post-midnight

it's been a really long while since i updated my blog and it seems like if i don't do so soon, i'm going to lose touch with this avenue of writing, which i obviously don't want to happen.
i really like to write about things that i feel strongly about but then again i'm generally a really lazy person so it takes me a lot of willpower to get down to doing something.

a month has passed since a levels ended and i'm not sure if my post-a's euphoria and ecstasy was something i imagined to be like this.
i never pictured freedom to be something so.... bitter-tasting as this.
it is not exactly bitter, but rather a tasteless drug that occasionally releases bouts of bitterness.
post-a's hasn't been the most exciting and neither has it been the most anticipated moment of my life.
sure, i'm free from my studies but life never comes easy as always.
it is so much less enticing now given the whole irony of a "quiet freedom".
my life is pretty much revolving around nothing but running man, maple, work, and occasional movies.
i rarely go out now or meet up with friends despite my level of freedom after the exams right now.
call me lazy or what but i don't like to initiate things so i guess this passiveness is going to kill me someday somehow hahaha.
i feel like i'm gradually becoming a boxed-up introvert cum couch potato who is gradually losing touch with all her friends one by one.
it's sad that our generation relies on whatsapp so much that i'm losing the human touch.
call me heartless but i don't exactly look forward to any outings of any sort anymore. (any has been repeated purposely for emphasis)
i no longer feel the happiness inside of me that i once did; the times when i got to hang out with the people i really loved.
all i wish is to stay at home (which i clearly know i will degenerate into a useless piece of trash soon and hence isn't beneficial for me) and do absolutely nothing.
somehow, i am craving for something less sought after - and that is prized family time.
after starting work, not only has it taught me that you gotta slog your guts out for money, but also how precious time is.
time is such a confusing concept.
it's funny how time passes really slowly when you're bored (at work), but during times like these my mind wanders off to think about all the precious family time that has diverged away towards a commitment of holding a job.
and it definitely makes me miss home a little more.
never will you find the same warmth and sense of acceptance at home anywhere else and neither will you ever find a greater source of comfort and love elsewhere.
sometimes i think humans are really silly creatures for everything we do is done in comparison.
only when we are put outside of our comfort zone will we realize how blessed we are.
only when we are thrown into a worse-off place will we understand what a good life we lead.
i'm currently standing on the edge and contemplating over certain matters (no definitely not suicide) but i hope i'll think through things and not act upon my emotions like i always do.

sometimes i also can't believe i'm already 18, or should i say, i'm only 18.
i'm already 18 - i've been through so much. i've seen so much of this world i'm starting to lose faith in humanity as i grow in age. 18 years of a roller-coaster ride that is life has definitely put me through the best and worst times. but i guess the best part of it all is knowing that i'm never alone though sometimes i fail to realize that.
but then again, i'm only 18.
the world is only slowly unravelling itself to me. 18 years have passed but i have a long life ahead of me to lead, just when i think the world is already as ugly as it is, things start tumbling downhill and they just get even uglier. i know i still have a lot to learn and see, i've a really long way to go. but i guess the best part of it all is knowing that i'll meet new people and new faces who will probably change my perspective on things or impact me in some way or another.

it's terrifying, isn't it?
that we are living in this cold, contemptuous world filled with so much of greed and hatred.
it's scaring so much that sometimes i feel i'm losing myself and who i really am.
a year ago, or at least a month ago, i loved doing things for others and basked in our shared happiness.
but the now me suddenly just wants some alone time, for myself to just barely stay alive (figuratively).
don't know if i'm growing old or growing up but i am lacking so much in passion right now i don't think it's really healthy for me.
what is a life devoid of love and fiery passion.

for now, i guess i'll just take things as they come and let that inner passive voice of mine from within overwhelm me for the time being.
until the time when i figure is right for me to emerge from my shell, renewed in strength and vigour.
on a really irrelevant and somewhat utopian side note, i am still dreaming about my not-too-impossible getaway to korea for 30 days.

really hoping that i'll get the chance to do the above stated.
that's one to go on my bucket list.

okay i seriously need to end this post soon.
it's flooding with so much negativity i don't know if it's within one's capacity to take.
since i don't like to end off posts on a sad note, here's to hoping for better days ahead. xx

(happy belated christmas to all you random people out there reading this (^・ω・^ ))

quick update

75% done with a's and hence i'm back for a quick while.

i'll try to keep this short.

i don't know why but i feel like i've been thinking a lot recently.

despite a's being my biggest priority now, when darkness falls and it's past midnight, that's when the weird thoughts start creeping in.

i've always been a night-person, i love staying up late.

be it to talk to others, to play games or to watch shows (studying is an exception), night time is always the best.

so recently i found a quote on twitter that said:
"you have to find the right distance between people. too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and they abandon you."
many people have said that i'm a "sociable" person, that i have a really wide social circle and i have many good friends.

to be honest i personally feel otherwise.

honestly, i'm not the nicest kind of person you'd first meet because i always give off this bloody long fml face. 

neither am i a social butterfly who says hi to the people i kinda know but then again don't know.

but i would seek comfort in the fact that i have quite a few close friends whom i am entirely comfortable with.

however i don't know how long these friendships will last, because from past experience, i'm never good with sustaining relationships with others.

not that i don't want to, and in fact i really want to develop long-term relations, but sometimes i just don't know how to go about doing it.

not that i am doubting my friends as individuals but sometimes i feel i can't handle things well enough for a long-term friendship to develop.

coming to jc made me realize what a bitch i am actually. 

how is it that my friendships with guys and girls fail to turn out nicely in the end?

does the fault lie with me?

i don't know but sometimes i really doubt myself.

and i hate it that sometimes my impulses get the better of me.

just when i thought things became better, there are just some things about a person that will never change huh?

control, jamie, control.

post-prelims

so thankful for the days of post-prelims.
i finally got a chance to relax, unwind and just, take a good break from all that studying.
not that this was a well-deserved break but i guess it was a good temporary escapade from the reality of a levels.

brunch at lola's that morning after chem paper 1 and i finally ate my mushroom brioche again :-)
i was rather disappointed though because the bread was a tad too burnt and the portion size shrinked a little (but i was still really full)...
:(
maybe i'll learn to make brioche on my own after a's to save on the costly meals at lola's!!!!!

after the shittiest bio paper 1 ever sr20 kids changed out after executing our mission take-bag-run.
had dinner at settlers' and had a great time chatting over dinner and taking selfies with fish-eye lenses.
headed down in the direction of city hall after buying my favourite hokkaido ice cream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stopped by the oldest church in sg (chijmes is it?) and was pretty amazed by the sounds that were produced when the lights were shone on to the flowers!
walked on to armenian street and stopped by the peranakan museum!
was totally excited about the instant prints and the whole museum experience all over again! :)
loved the whole atmosphere along armenian street also because of the live brass band that we followed down the street to sing 'when the saints go marching in'!
there was this whole london feel to it omggggg :)
watched the earth harp too and wow that guy is amazing!
love the whole accompaniment of the drums and synthetic piano!!!
overall it was a great night with the best company i could ever ask for.
shall now let the pictures do the talking :)

at settler's while playing with fisheye lens and complaining about charles' drug-peddler bag HAHAHA

these were taken while we were waiting for the traffic light to turn green...................

only to find that there was no pedestrian crossing for us HAHAHAHA.

so we decided to jaywalk and took a selfie while crossing midway because the traffic was just too heavy hahahaha.

yolo man.

beanie vanvan and i hehehe so cute right 

happy patz and i with our hokkaido ice cream that melted within 5 minutes so we drank it like soup hahahaha

we got 'dem wefies!

while taking family portraits...

you've got the fierce family.

and the fun family.

HAHAHAHA

xoxoxoxoxo

another one of our attempts at group shots so as to have our instant print photos heheh.

we're gonna be the next fashion models yo hahahaha. #ootd

and yes this was my record-breaking post for the number of likes lol i sound so materialistic but who cares.

deal with it, kids.

us after making the paper hats lulllll i bet the whole world was judging us

-

thanks guys for such a wonderful night.

you don't even know how much i miss 1sr20 and sigh it would have been so much fun if we were still together.

love you guys to the moon and back; thank you all for being my strongest pillar of support and my deepest source of encouragement throughout this tumultuous journey of shitty exams.

x 

life

i don't even know what to title this post... hence life.

it's been a pretty long while ago since i've last blogged - i don't even know what to blog about now.

i don't know if i'm actually losing touch with this medium of writing especially since there are few surviving blogs of teens today...

i hope i don't ever give this up because i find a certain accomplishment and joy in writing about my life.

well it seems rather self-centered doesn't it.

but i guess i do have SOME readers, both expected and unexpected, so well, thank you for popping by my little blog of nothingness!!!

appreciate the few but significant readers i get, though i won't get to find out who you are unless you tell me personally... :-)

so yeah thank you!

anyway here are just 5 random facts about the happenings in my life right now.

i think i should do this more often since i won't be finding the time to blog in the near future (thank a levels).

this was actually inspired by a blog that i've been keeping up with since secondary school.

though you will never know who you are, but i actually really admire the way your life turns out and how honestly you put it into words.

you are one amazing blogger!

1) recently been going on an online retail therapy session.... my dad's been introducing me to cheap stuff online. i mean it's not that i'm being a cheapskate or what but somehow or rather i enjoy being thrifty (especially with my dad) because i know money isn't easy to come by and if we can save, we will save together. so my recent purchases were a rucksack at $14, two pullovers both less than $10 each and a giraffe phone cover (which was obviously inspired by kwangsoo) for $3... cheap would be an understatement. i kinda really like online shopping but the cons is that it is ABSOLUTELY time-consuming because you browse like there is no tomorrow and that there's no refund if the sizes don't fit. learnt my lesson from previous experiences of online purchases and i vowed never to buy a piece of clothing online anymore.

2) my mid-year results are worrying but not worrying. i don't even know how to put my results across here and how i ought to feel about them. true that i've made some improvement since the common tests but i'm still below average in the cohort. i've been working hard, or at least trying my best, but somehow deep inside i feel that i am working hard emptily. like i'm studying for the sake of studying while getting nowhere and everything i'm trying to internalise coming to naught. jc has really made studying a farce for me. how nasty.

3) been listening to a lot of (korean) music recently. i don't know why but i've been DYING to find songs that i fall in love upon my first listen or either that just something new that is kpop. getting pretty sick with my current playlist but i'm glad i found more new music of related genres through shazam!!!! so thankful for technology these days i don't even know what i'd do without 'em. so to those who enjoy pop/rock and a little bit of alternative, here's my recent additions to the music library:

air balloon by lily allen - this one's for those who like a little pop and upbeat to their songs but if you are totally against artificially overtuned vocals maybe it'll be a nay. give it a try though since i'm an anti-female-artiste but still like it anyway!!!! it's a bit like kesha + katy perry...

rhythm of love by plain white t's - for those who really like acoustic guitar accompaniments. this is the one song for relaxation. put this song on play and close your eyes; imagine yourself on a sandy beach with blue skies. it's the perfect summer song! classic plain white t's genre!

parallel by heffron drive - it's a pretty fantasy-like song but i love the accompaniment!!! the duo's vocals are really good and i love the pre-chorus 'cos his voice is like whoa-oh!!!!! on fire!!!! okay i sound overly excited but yeah the lyrics are quite sweet so do give it a listen!

how to save a life by the fray - yeah this is an old song, but recently found it through shazam and finally knew how this song sounded like. only heard of the song title before but not the song - and i now know why it is so damn amazing. super the-fray-ish but that's what you gotta love them for; their perfect blend of piano and emotional vocals. thumbs up x1000 for this please go and listen to this!!!!

jamie all over by mayday parade - heard this song at cotton on in tampines one on a day out with my family. it is a really good song!!!!!! (probably not a coincidence that the song title has my name) the chorus is really catchy and mainstream though hahaha the lyrics are everywhere on tumblr if i'm not wrong... seen 'em around a lot. irony is that there is no mention of the name jamie in the song anyway hahaha. mayday parade is just mayday parade and similar artistes: we the kings plus a bit of all time low!!

(below onwards: korean)

peter pan by exo -  this is the best korean song i have ever listened to (yes it has overtaken dbsk's balloons and picture of you) thanks wanrou hahahaha. the upbeat electric guitar really gives the song a fairytale edge to it. love this so much it's 2nd most played in my itunes!!!! (first is art of war) i think love would be an understatement. don't even know when i'd grow tired of this song.

busan vacance by haha and skull - i don't know if this song was actually written in aim of promoting korean tourism or something but it has kinda worked its potential charm.... the song's rhythm is so catchy and cute + the music video of korea's landscape just makes you want to visit the place even more!!!! i can't wait to fly to the land of kimchi after a's if time/parents/money permit!!!!!!! so damn excited i cannot even contain.

4) my attachment/addiction to running man has returned recently. been watching at least 1 at most 2 episodes in my free time during the june holidays and though week 2 of school is over i think i am barely getting over my daily dose of running man.... it really kinda sucks that i still am unable to catch up with the most recent episodes because that's where the hype is but it's okay i can always speed-watch after a's!!!!!! on a side note that has been repeated countless times i seriously cannot wait for a's to end.

5) kinda gave up this entire dieting/weight loss plan though i am still conscious of what i eat. it is so hard to focus on shedding all that extra pounds i gained from coming to jc and i guess i'll leave all that hardcore cardio and healthy dieting to post-a's... during the june holidays i actually picked up a 28-day pilates challenge which i stuck to until day 20 or so because it was hurting my back and every single joint in my body. i tried running 2/3x a week to burn the fat and i guess i really felt the difference upon returning to school. my lower stomach is still as fat fml, but i can feel my skirt and berms getting looser. think i have an easily bloated tummy or either that a very weak stomach and it is rare for days that i actually feel comfortable in my school bottoms. kinda sucks to be me because i've got the weirdest body shape ever but whatever. i shall worry about that after a's. plenty of time then.

sorry that my 5 things ended up to become some 500 word essay about my life.

gotta stop being so naggy and get straight to the point though sometimes i feel details are really important.

so it is the 12th of july and we are almost 3 months away from the a level exams.

this sickening piece of shit is really sucking me dry of my life.

i don't know why but i feel like we are all slaves of a revolution that is bound to wipe us all out.

i cannot even put my lack of life into words.

we're all so devoid of passion and honesty, we've all been sucked up into this black hole of competitive academics and this big monster also known as the a levels.

it's quite sad rather, to see the people around me conceding defeat to the clutches of this monstrous national exam.

a levels is really a monster; i can't help but feel that its immensity is weighing everyone around me down and crushing their fragile beings.

physically, mentally and psychologically, i feel that we're all losing this battle, one by one.

seeing the people around me fall ill, being hit by one of the worst psychological warfares, staging an unnecessary war with this thing called stress, everything.

i admit that i myself am so tired that sometimes i really feel like giving up too.

but no i gotta press on, for the sake of the people who love me and care about me.

anyway i am not having it the worst, i know it.

i know.

the most i can do and will do for the people around me is to keep up optimism, because i believe that if you keep hope alive it will keep you alive.

don't lose faith or sight in anything that might seem bleak up ahead.

instead, always believe in yourself and that is already half the battle won.

can't promise that i'll be here 24/7 but my blog will always be here for comfort.

i hope this post of advice and my previous posts of heartfelt emotions will serve as a good respite from reality and an antidote to current problems.

till then,

xxxx

see y'all soon!

concert and cafes

it has been a really hectic month but i have finally cleared mid-years!!!
nothing much to be happy about because the results are pretty damn shit and so is the mood right now.
oh well.
nonetheless i had a great week of post-exam de-stressing sessions and i must say it was a good break that followed from the mye crazies.
this week i visited about 4 cafes and i'm definitely one happy kid now.
really putting the 'hopping' into the much-raved-about 'cafe-hopping' ;)

REAL FOOD



so i visited this place on monday after our holiday lessons with vanessa!
as its name suggests, real food is a place that serves nothing but the best foods because it is prepared with a great deal of passion all in the effort of healthy/green eating.
what makes this place stand out from the rest is that it is a meat-free place, and everything is healthily and carefully prepared with vegetables or flour-based ingredients.
this is the place to visit if you are a conscious eater or either that you want to try eating cleanly for a meal! ;-)
i must say that this place is pretty good because the menu still offers a wide variety of different options ranging from all-day breakfast to sandwiches to main courses like pasta and pizza!
i decided on the kombu shiitake soup with udon while vanessa had dumpling soup with brown rice.
the price was rather pocket-friendly as there was no service-charge (or was it gst ahahaha i forgot) so we paid less than $10 each for what we ate :-)
my soup was pretty bland but i guess that's what you get for wanting to eat really healthily.
but the dumplings were really good and for something that does not contain meat i swear, the juice from the 10-over ingredients in the dumplings just makes it oooh-la-la!!!
and i am not even a fan of dumplings...
so go ahead and pop by real food if you'd like to dine out because this is really a healthier option!

LOLA'S CAFE



not my first time here but tuesday was my virgin try at its desserts and appetisers there with nigel and xiaohui!
ordered their iced mocha; nothing impressive but it was okay because i didn't like my coffee too strong and this one was pretty chocolate-y and bitter rather than aromatic.
so don't try this if you like your coffee thick and strong!!!
the honey wings we shared were so damn good i'm not even exaggerating, it was something unique that i've never tried before and they were pretty generous with the honey so yay!!! :)
the bangers & mash were cooked to perfection especially the potatoes because they were so fresh you could even taste the real potato bits in 'em!
tried the seasalt chocolate tart with coffee cream and yeah this was pretty good because the tart crust and the bitter chocolate went really well together. the cream wasn't too frothy and thick and gross so yay for that!
the lemon meringue tart was rather ordinary to me and i'm not exactly a sucker for those dried lemon peels on top hahaha. tasted pretty weird to me.

popped by again the next day during our 4.5h break to have brunch with jennee, vanessa and gina here!
pretty annoyed because we waited for an hour or so just to get our seats...
but it was rather amusing because we got to judge the people who were sitting outdoors hahaha. #meanshit

wanted to try the mushroom melt for a very long time already so i finally ordered this!!!

LOOK AT THE MUSHROOM, CHEESE AND BRIOCHE BREAD GOODNESS.
i swear the brioche bread is amazing and in fact amazing is an understatement.
the natural sweetness of the brioche accompanied by the salty mushroom and cheese made it so perfect.
the portion is pretty generous and it kept me full for really long and that i didn't even have dinner!
this is really a to-die-for must-try item on the menu and i will definitely return to order this again!!!!!
super super super lip-smacking that you can't get enough.
dreaming of the brioche now.....

BACKSTAGE CAFE



this has become my new favourite place after a long and hard hunt for this!!!
always wanted to try this because i've read really good reviews about it and yay the day finally came!
the menu laid out such a wide spread for us and we were all spoiled for choice.
i ordered the chicken burger thing (top right, can't remember the exact name) for $13 and it seriously exceeded my expectations.
anyway recently i don't know why but i keep ordering burgers though i don't like 'em and the fries but meh i think i'm starting to fall in love with burgers simply because of the bread. :P
so, with the mindset of i-just-want-to-eat-bread-so-i-will-just-buy-the-burger i did not expect that the chicken fillet inside was so tender and delicious!!!!
it was not like the kind of cheap, ground-up meat you'd usually get but i could taste the sweet sauces exploding from the careful marination of the meat!!!
shan't comment on the fries because all fries taste the same to me...
had dessert and tried their rainbow cake as well as the oreo cheesecake.
i really really enjoyed the oreo cheesecake omg it is too good beyond description.
however i feel that the rainbow cake was too dense, or should i say it's aesthetic appeal overran the texture of real sponge cake.
it was a tad too moist and tbh i think any amateur baker can bake a cake better than that.
but yeah, maybe that's what rainbow cakes are; pretty-looking but average-tasting.
definitely going to come back because the place is so peaceful and quiet and actually i didn't wanna write about this place because i secretly don't want it to become popular and lose its ambience ahahahahaha oops.

SETTLER'S CAFE



(okay the photo is inverted but who cares)
tried this on friday in place of shoebox canteen because it was unknowingly closed :(
was a little disappointed because i really wanted to try the shoebox canteen!
settled (ha ha ha) with this alternative; settler's cafe and honestly i didn't regret it anymore ;)
the prices are mad-cheap and students get additional discounts!!!
we paid $25 for 3 people and this was including a main course, soup and drink each.
it's actually a gaming cafe with 600 over games to choose from but the games come at a different rate.
service was thumbs-up as the guy was really friendly and patient with us as we were placing our orders :)
the only setback here is that they don't have much desserts and if they served something like waffles or cakes or tarts i'm sure the sweet-tooth will come flocking in!
overall i really enjoyed this place as the food was really good (the mushroom soup is seriously heaven) and the service was really warm.
going to come back here again on monday!!!!
super good place to just chill-out and catch-up with your pals!

so that's about it for my cafe review.
moving on to the much-anticipated concert that i've been awaiting since mye's!!!

WE THE KINGS - THE ART OF TOUR



decided to buy tickets for the art of tour because i really loved their new album.
art of war never gets old, find you there is my happy pill, sad song is for the times when you are seriously feeling sad, say it now is my occasional need-to-listen-to song and etc.
glad that i managed to here those songs live along with any other way and i like it ;)
they played classics like check yes juliet and skyway avenue too omg :)))
but personally i felt that my $88 was not as well-spent as i thought it would be.
firstly, too much of the singing was left to the crowd.
not a personal attack to the band or anything but, honestly they could do with so much more of their powerhouse vocals rather than leaving it to the audience to spoil by singing it off-pitch.
seriously they have super good voices live but the frequent pauses and amplification of the audience's mesmerized chanting was just too much.
i swear check yes juliet, half the singing was done by the crowd and it was pretty much a big bummer.
really annoying as heck too because the crowd was a piece of rowdy shit.
the people were generally of a younger age group than ours and some were rude as shit and shouted like a bitch at the people around.
oh hell no this is a concert it is so not normal for the pushing to happen -_-
i swear i wanted so much to slap some of these people...
furthermore i was just this close to witnessing a physical cat fight between a group of girls who were fighting over the drumstick that they threw.
yeah i know you are a diehard crazy fan and that i'm not, but seriously all that pushing and shouting was seriously uncalled for.
all your reputation has gone down the drain, girl.

secondly, the acoustics were LEGIT SHIT.
the venue was quite crappy (it was at the coliseum) and also i think because the sound crew screwed up a lot.
so much for trying to fine-tune the drums and guitars but honestly it was quite pissing because the drums and bass were way too heavy.
it completely drowned out the vocals and the videos i recorded, you can't even hear travis singing.
i know you shouldn''t record videos as it'll spoil the mood but seriously, you can't even hear travis' voice live.
all you can hear is the overweighted pounding of the drums which seriously gave me a headache.
sighpie.
maybe because i've been to simple plan's concert (which was bloody bloody good) that's why i've raised the bar for my expectations this concert.
oh well.

nonetheless i do not mean any offence but honestly if the acoustics were better balanced the concert would have been perfect.
not depriving we the kings of their amazing talent live, but really, everything dampened all thanks to the poor sound management.
but i still had a good time anyway, and thank you we the kings for being here in singapore to deliver the best concert that you could have :-)

"without you i feel broke, like i'm half of a whole.

without you, i've got no hand to hold.

without you i feel torn, like a sail in a storm.

without you, i'm just a sad song."

xoxo

losing focus

i swear this is me right now.

i. cannot. freaking. focus.

i don't even know why!!!!!

it's like i would do anything but study.

i can just nua on my bed doing nothing, or stare into blank space at nothing.

i would do anything and everything, i even went to play icy tower on facebook because i was just so freaking tired of studying (which was when i found out that there is no more restaurant city on fb too).

my attention span is like less than 3 minutes before i pick up my phone again.

so damn tired of studying already omg, i know it's the mid-year exam period and i shouldn't be losing my motivation at times like this, but really i cannot help it.

i think coming to jc has really made me develop a hate for studying.

i used to not mind mugging in secondary school, but now in jc it's a whole different story.

jc makes you feel really stupid, like a pea.

gross.

aiya i just hope i get through mid-years and improve a little from common tests.

mye's start this friday with gp and freaking bio omg????!!!!!?!?!?!!?

there's study leave tmrw, but i'm not sure if i should go to the airport to study?

but if yes that means i have to lug all my bio crap over there and that includes one fat file of lecture notes + books plus the damn ten-year series which i think is at least 500 pages thick.

omg how how how or should i go for half a day and come back home after lunch to memorize content b'cos i can't do it outside?

but i cannot focus at home i swear omg.

sucks to be me.

how how how how what should i do tmr/where should i study tmr!!!! :(