it's been a pretty long while ago since i've last blogged - i don't even know what to blog about now.
i don't know if i'm actually losing touch with this medium of writing especially since there are few surviving blogs of teens today...
i hope i don't ever give this up because i find a certain accomplishment and joy in writing about my life.
well it seems rather self-centered doesn't it.
but i guess i do have SOME readers, both expected and unexpected, so well, thank you for popping by my little blog of nothingness!!!
appreciate the few but significant readers i get, though i won't get to find out who you are unless you tell me personally... :-)
so yeah thank you!
anyway here are just 5 random facts about the happenings in my life right now.
i think i should do this more often since i won't be finding the time to blog in the near future (thank a levels).
this was actually inspired by a blog that i've been keeping up with since secondary school.
though you will never know who you are, but i actually really admire the way your life turns out and how honestly you put it into words.
you are one amazing blogger!
1) recently been going on an online retail therapy session.... my dad's been introducing me to cheap stuff online. i mean it's not that i'm being a cheapskate or what but somehow or rather i enjoy being thrifty (especially with my dad) because i know money isn't easy to come by and if we can save, we will save together. so my recent purchases were a rucksack at $14, two pullovers both less than $10 each and a giraffe phone cover (which was obviously inspired by kwangsoo) for $3... cheap would be an understatement. i kinda really like online shopping but the cons is that it is ABSOLUTELY time-consuming because you browse like there is no tomorrow and that there's no refund if the sizes don't fit. learnt my lesson from previous experiences of online purchases and i vowed never to buy a piece of clothing online anymore.
2) my mid-year results are worrying but not worrying. i don't even know how to put my results across here and how i ought to feel about them. true that i've made some improvement since the common tests but i'm still below average in the cohort. i've been working hard, or at least trying my best, but somehow deep inside i feel that i am working hard emptily. like i'm studying for the sake of studying while getting nowhere and everything i'm trying to internalise coming to naught. jc has really made studying a farce for me. how nasty.
3) been listening to a lot of (korean) music recently. i don't know why but i've been DYING to find songs that i fall in love upon my first listen or either that just something new that is kpop. getting pretty sick with my current playlist but i'm glad i found more new music of related genres through shazam!!!! so thankful for technology these days i don't even know what i'd do without 'em. so to those who enjoy pop/rock and a little bit of alternative, here's my recent additions to the music library:
air balloon by lily allen - this one's for those who like a little pop and upbeat to their songs but if you are totally against artificially overtuned vocals maybe it'll be a nay. give it a try though since i'm an anti-female-artiste but still like it anyway!!!! it's a bit like kesha + katy perry...
rhythm of love by plain white t's - for those who really like acoustic guitar accompaniments. this is the one song for relaxation. put this song on play and close your eyes; imagine yourself on a sandy beach with blue skies. it's the perfect summer song! classic plain white t's genre!
parallel by heffron drive - it's a pretty fantasy-like song but i love the accompaniment!!! the duo's vocals are really good and i love the pre-chorus 'cos his voice is like whoa-oh!!!!! on fire!!!! okay i sound overly excited but yeah the lyrics are quite sweet so do give it a listen!
how to save a life by the fray - yeah this is an old song, but recently found it through shazam and finally knew how this song sounded like. only heard of the song title before but not the song - and i now know why it is so damn amazing. super the-fray-ish but that's what you gotta love them for; their perfect blend of piano and emotional vocals. thumbs up x1000 for this please go and listen to this!!!!
jamie all over by mayday parade - heard this song at cotton on in tampines one on a day out with my family. it is a really good song!!!!!! (probably not a coincidence that the song title has my name) the chorus is really catchy and mainstream though hahaha the lyrics are everywhere on tumblr if i'm not wrong... seen 'em around a lot. irony is that there is no mention of the name jamie in the song anyway hahaha. mayday parade is just mayday parade and similar artistes: we the kings plus a bit of all time low!!
(below onwards: korean)
peter pan by exo - this is the best korean song i have ever listened to (yes it has overtaken dbsk's balloons and picture of you) thanks wanrou hahahaha. the upbeat electric guitar really gives the song a fairytale edge to it. love this so much it's 2nd most played in my itunes!!!! (first is art of war) i think love would be an understatement. don't even know when i'd grow tired of this song.
busan vacance by haha and skull - i don't know if this song was actually written in aim of promoting korean tourism or something but it has kinda worked its potential charm.... the song's rhythm is so catchy and cute + the music video of korea's landscape just makes you want to visit the place even more!!!! i can't wait to fly to the land of kimchi after a's if time/parents/money permit!!!!!!! so damn excited i cannot even contain.4) my attachment/addiction to running man has returned recently. been watching at least 1 at most 2 episodes in my free time during the june holidays and though week 2 of school is over i think i am barely getting over my daily dose of running man.... it really kinda sucks that i still am unable to catch up with the most recent episodes because that's where the hype is but it's okay i can always speed-watch after a's!!!!!! on a side note that has been repeated countless times i seriously cannot wait for a's to end.
5) kinda gave up this entire dieting/weight loss plan though i am still conscious of what i eat. it is so hard to focus on shedding all that extra pounds i gained from coming to jc and i guess i'll leave all that hardcore cardio and healthy dieting to post-a's... during the june holidays i actually picked up a 28-day pilates challenge which i stuck to until day 20 or so because it was hurting my back and every single joint in my body. i tried running 2/3x a week to burn the fat and i guess i really felt the difference upon returning to school. my lower stomach is still as fat fml, but i can feel my skirt and berms getting looser. think i have an easily bloated tummy or either that a very weak stomach and it is rare for days that i actually feel comfortable in my school bottoms. kinda sucks to be me because i've got the weirdest body shape ever but whatever. i shall worry about that after a's. plenty of time then.
sorry that my 5 things ended up to become some 500 word essay about my life.
gotta stop being so naggy and get straight to the point though sometimes i feel details are really important.
so it is the 12th of july and we are almost 3 months away from the a level exams.
this sickening piece of shit is really sucking me dry of my life.
i don't know why but i feel like we are all slaves of a revolution that is bound to wipe us all out.
i cannot even put my lack of life into words.
we're all so devoid of passion and honesty, we've all been sucked up into this black hole of competitive academics and this big monster also known as the a levels.
it's quite sad rather, to see the people around me conceding defeat to the clutches of this monstrous national exam.
a levels is really a monster; i can't help but feel that its immensity is weighing everyone around me down and crushing their fragile beings.
physically, mentally and psychologically, i feel that we're all losing this battle, one by one.
seeing the people around me fall ill, being hit by one of the worst psychological warfares, staging an unnecessary war with this thing called stress, everything.
i admit that i myself am so tired that sometimes i really feel like giving up too.
but no i gotta press on, for the sake of the people who love me and care about me.
anyway i am not having it the worst, i know it.
i know.
the most i can do and will do for the people around me is to keep up optimism, because i believe that if you keep hope alive it will keep you alive.
don't lose faith or sight in anything that might seem bleak up ahead.
instead, always believe in yourself and that is already half the battle won.
can't promise that i'll be here 24/7 but my blog will always be here for comfort.
i hope this post of advice and my previous posts of heartfelt emotions will serve as a good respite from reality and an antidote to current problems.
till then,
xxxx
see y'all soon!
