no, just to clarify, i am not doing this in conjunction with sr's 25th anniversary.
and no i was also not bribed by the school to do anything like that (ha ha ha oops).
but because i am on a writing streak after finishing a thousand-and-three-hundred word essay on media bias (which i have covered much ground for research and read about how bloggers are "amateurish" for their spelling and grammatical mistakes, wow thanks i choose to think otherwise though) and talking to sheryl (after ages) about her life in ny just made me feel compelled to post something here.
not the most apt time i know, considering that i have a math test tomorrow, but i feel this pressing need to update this online space of mine which i know i will have to bid temporary farewell to soon.
sometimes we moan, or at least i moan, about life in sr.
yes to be honest, we are not the coolest school with the smartest policies around, and neither are we a school with much to brag about maybe with the exception of some of our niche sport ccas.
sr is a commonplace, neighbourhood school that you might expect nothing from.
before you entered, you felt a sense of condemnation towards everything about the school.
i'd constantly berate myself for "doing badly" in o levels, i'd incessantly whine about the "bad decision" i've made coming to sr, i'd relentlessly moan about how "lousy" the school is, basically.
that was me before i entered the school, and even when i am still schooling here right now.
i would not deny the fact that i still have a whole list of disparaging complaints towards the school culture, but i've decided to set that aside for another time and focus on the positive of being in sr.
i can't say that my regret coming here has disappeared altogether, but i can say that it has faded slightly and at least that's a good thing?
i rather i be objective and emotionless towards the school than to be a completely lifeless and desiccated soul that never seems to run out of dissatisfaction.
anyway, back to the point, it seems like i have relatively "enjoyed" (there is an obvious risk with such pronouncements so i shall put them in inverted commas) my almost-2 years in srjc and yeah so here are just 5 things i am thankful for in sr. :-)
i am not going to go all "omg thank you sr i love you muacks muacks so grateful for you", but i just somehow found the good in all the bad that i used to perceive and maybe after all my life isn't that bad.
1) the fact that i learnt to be thankful myself
sounds like inception huh?
to be honest, coming to sr was a very refreshing experience and a pleasant eye-opener.
well i wouldn't say it has been entirely a bed of roses, but it really opened up my eyes to the people around me, that i was once living in the sheltered walls of pl where i never got to experience these first-hand.
so many ordinary people are living their lives so well you don't even notice they come from dysfunctional families and whatnot.
i don't know if it's good acting or just plain ignorance but honestly i learnt never to judge a book by it's cover too.
seeing the people around me struggle to cope with jc life, or even just grappling to survive makes me realise how thankful i am to come from a blessed family.
in the past all i'd see were rich girls who had the world and nothing to worry about.
now what i see are superficially happy people who seem to be getting by with life pretty well, but deep inside you know they are struggling.
and all you can do is watch.
i guess the least i can do is to really, be thankful for everything that i am blessed with everything.
my life might not be perfect but it's great!
2) the friends i have made
this is going to sound so cliche but honestly i am thankful for the friends that i have made in sr.
i might not have the most friends or a relatively wider social circle like i did back in secondary school, but i guess coming to sr/jc has taught me the value of independence.
the meaning to "having few but true friends" suddenly becomes reality.
though we've only known one another for 1 or 2 years, i am still grateful for the people that i have interacted with so far.
1sr20, 2sr19, the guitarists, srgce friends and even some hi-bye friends i have made along the way.
i think people really play an important role in our school life right now because they will be the solace of comfort, the source of strength and joy, the reason to keep going.
3) the teachers
this is going to sound even more cliche but the teachers in sr (majority) are really worthy of my gratitude.
one thing i know for sure is that the culture of care in sr is real when it comes to the teachers.
seeing them work so hard for us j2s makes me feel like they are more uptight about us taking the exams than we are.
you can see the effort that they've put in to the revision lectures and tutorials, and all the consultations, star lessons and night study sessions and basically everything in the curriculum.
thank you for being the one to give me direction when i myself feel at a loss and don't know what to do, teachers.
i might not show it but yes honestly, thank you.
4) my firsts
i sound like a baby but, sr was honestly, the first time i made guy friends (like legit friends that talked), the first time i had an eye candy, the first time i actually felt self-conscious (because guys), the first time i reached home at 11pm, the first time i felt like i was GENUINELY going to die of fatigue (because i only had 3 hours of sleep once), the first time i actually learnt to let go (of my studies), the first time i understand how eyebags feel like, the first time i actually started running on my own accord, the first time i understand how it feels to put on weight (SUCKS), the first time i danced with a guy (college dance ahahahahahaha not some fancy clubbing), the first time i ran a 10km marathon, the first time i yolo-ed etc etc.
the list goes on, but these are the (first) memories i will never forget. :')
5) srjc all for you
yeah getting the u's in your result slip doesn't really seem to matter much anymore.
getting a u grade here is pretty much the norm and i guess it has taught me something - that failure isn't everything.
i've failed countless of times that i've become immune to it already.
i guess this is a good thing because it really teaches me to be resilient and not to give up easily.
used to be so, so, so afraid of failure in pl but now i guess i've grown quite a bit in sr.
so yup let's turn the u's into a's and b's soon!!!!
ok gotta go sleep now
12.40am already and i gotta last till 10pm tmrw for tuition.
cya
