day 17: a song you want to be played at your funeral

linkin park's leave out all the rest.
it'll be the song at my funeral, totally.
guess it talks about me living a life fulfilling enough, and that i've tried my very best to live up to all the expectations i'm dealt with.
and that now i'm already gone, just let me go in peace, but remember me as someone who cared, loved, and just... stop bearing grudges against me.
i don't need to be known as someone noble, but i just wanna be remembered as the girl/lady who lived a life of happiness.
so when i pass on, just let me have the opportunity of being honoured by everyone.

this song is so awesome how could it have been used for twilight omg wtf shit lol k nvm guess twilight was too lousy and needed this brilliant song to boost its views HAH

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the emotion of this post right now.... freaking fits how i'm feeling now.
i mean, i honestly care for you.
i try my best to make you happy 'cos you're a true friend to me.
but when i realised my efforts and sacrifices were futile, it pains me because it feels like i wasted all my time on you.
i still care for you but...
i'm just pretty disappointed at this.
but, if you want to break free, then i'll let you go.
i don't want to tie you down with my time.
i can't even look you in the eyes now, it's just, so awkward.
and when i hear sounds of what reminds me of you, it just....... hurts.
guess i need time for the hurt and disappointment to fade away.
but just to let you know if you're ever feeling sad or lonely i'll always be here for you.
though i won't exactly be the first person you'd find but yeah whatever.
love you. x

OH GOD I SOUND LIKE THIS EMO KID AGAIN. DAMN IT IT'S LIKE HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF. I AM NOT EMOOOOOO I JUST WANT TO TELL THIS TO SOMEONE. WHICH IS, MY BLOG. LOL I AM NOT EMO PLS KTHXBYE

k why the hell am i so terrible at expressing myself. i feel like an awkward turtle everytime i talk to people. god why am i so socially awkward zzzz. k whatever but that's me take it or leave it