will run 2013

today, 3rd august, was a such a memorable day.
today was the day that i took part in my first 10km marathon.
it was a personal challenge for me, considering that i am not a physically fit person.
to have only run a maximum distance of 5km at one go, to challenge 10km would be a difficult task...
but i did it, and i even ran 11km under the stipulated time of 1h 30min!
i'm sure i wouldn't have been able to complete this arduous journey if not for the help of my friends and my dad, who came down to run 10km too :-)
thank you for always being there every step of the way and for the times i actually wanted to give up.

well, the first 2 rounds weren't too bad...
i started walking after i finished my third, i just couldn't find the motivation to carry on running.
however i managed to regain my pace at the spectators' area because there was just simply too many boys watching.....
pressurizing eh.
and i made sure i ran the whole stretch from the fitness corner until the concourse..
ran with gina and yueenn for about the 4th or 5th round but lost them closely after T_T
so i was alone pretty much the whole time... until i saw maria and jennee like 200m ahead of me.
then i sprinted like crazy to catch up with them and i finally did hahahaha but then that drained me dry of my energy.
managed to keep up with them throughout till the end!
however at the 6th/7th round my ankles were really sore, like there was this sharp acute pain stinging both my ankles arghhhh.
it hurt real bad but what could i do? run. press on.
i stopped for water every round because it rly gave me that burst of energy i needed and boy it sure was good!
thanks to all the supporters of 1sr20 and other ppl who cheered for me hahahha.
when it came to the boys' race, jennee and i were roaming around and cheered for every boy/male teacher that we knew!
it was really fun giving out random high-fives to the male runners as a class!
there was this boy who was approaching us at a walking pace and after i high-fived him he picked up speed again and went on running!
this happened twice even hahah glad to have made you run faster woohoo!
i think those random people who high-fived us back are really cool!
though we didn't know them, but they spontaneously fived us back and that was awesome! :)
everytime a boy from sr20 ran past, all the girls were just like "GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *name*!"
i swear we could win the most enthusiastic class award hahah :')
it's rly cool how we had so much energy to sustain cheering and high-fiving for 1hr+ even after we ran our 10km.
and yay 3 is the magic number!!!! :)
so happy aww hahah.

yup so here are today's photos!!

srjc will run 2013 xoxo

second half of 2013

"and i swear in that moment, we were infinite."

listening to avril lavigne's here's to never growing up now, and these people above (^) are just one of the many reasons why i don't want to grow up.

so yes the june break is long gone, and now we're back in term 3 and it's high time i got serious about studying towards promos.

so yes this first week was nothing but more lectures and tutorials, and also the release of our MYE results.

and wowowowow our class performed really badly....

but it's okay let's work hard together towards our promos guys :)

believing that we can do it is already half the battle won.

yeah despite the bad results we got back for the week, i'm glad i really enjoyed myself on the night of rockfest :)

so amazed by the talents we have in sr, and honestly i lost my mind jumping and being crazy hahaha!!

screamed and sang till i had a bad throat the next day...

but nonetheless i'm really glad i got to see everyone perform so well!!!!

jasmine & pearlyn did great too :-)

okay yes so this all i have to say hahahah just felt like blogging for the sake of it..

so thankful for today's youth day holiday!!!! *throws confetti*

see you guys soon, will be mugging hard for promos!!! (Y)

let's goooooooooooooo

shut up shut up, don't wanna hear it

it's not that i don't want to forget the bad things that have happened.
but honestly it's difficult and it takes time.
too bad i've got to bring up such a negative post about life because oh well, sometimes you can't keep blogging about the ups of life right?
it's never smooth-sailing.
so i will strip myself bare of self-denial today and let my words run free as they deserve to occasionally.
it might hurt, or seem accusatory, but if the shoe fits, then put it on.

well well.
it has been about 5 months or so since we've settled into college already.
time flies pretty fast, and everything else that has happened in PL seems to be in a fading distance away.
it's nice to reminisce about the past but sometimes your old, unhappy thoughts will return unfailingly as you do so.
the bad times, the bad happenings, the bad memories will slowly haunt you one by one.
you don't wish to remember them 'cos you've long moved on, but sometimes you will unknowingly flip back to your old chapters of life.
and that's what inspired me to tweet that ^ (above picture)
i strongly believe in my own words (LOL EGO) because in life you are bound to meet people who turn out to be shockingly unpleasant.
and it is sad that we all might hurt someone in one way or another.
but anyway, i've encountered several of such incidences, and this is for all you people out there who think you may have been forgotten cleanly already.
hell no, i will always remember what you've done to me.
people say to forgive and forget, but obviously this is only what the naive will do.
really?
you think life is going to be a bed of roses if you just forgive people and that the world will be a happier place?
well i don't blame the optimist in you but sometimes you gotta admit that the things people do unto you will somehow stay with you for life.
it's not the exact words someone might have said, nor is it the exact expressions the person showed towards you, but it's more of the rollercoaster of emotions you experience at that very point in time.
and that rollercoaster obviously consists of 90% anger lol.
ok that's besides the point.
i don't know if you would call me a person who bears grudges easily, but personally, i don't think i do, unless the impact someone has had on me is great.
sad to say i've been there and done that, couple of times.
so yeah, i don't exactly HATE anybody (oh well well she's living in denial you may say), but yes, i just want to tell everyone who's screwed me up (no sick thoughts please) in life - thanks for the memories.
be it good or bad, sweet or bitter, lovely or unpleasant, i thank you.
thank you for teaching me much in life that there is a bitch inside a person, that you don't cry and wimp over what someone did to you for ages.
thank you for letting me understand what it feels like to be driven by misery, and thereby succeeding.
well my only goal to prove someone wrong was to be happy.
and i honestly am very happy now.
thank you for allowing me to experience all this, a daunting time of being hurled shit at.
i hope you are as happy as i am now, 'cos i know i won't ever forget you.
the day i get married, have kids, grow old, and even till the day i die, i swear that deep down i recognise you and all you did.
you may warn me not to harbour my hatred to my coffin, but what is life if you don't feel?
feel with your heart.
feel, everything, with your heart.
the reason why god gave us a heart is probably to feel a thousand emotions, and some maybe beneficial or detrimental, but well, some things in life you just can't forget.
so yes.
thanks guys, for the memories.
thanks for building my strength up, thanks for teaching me valuable lessons in life, thanks for making me into who/what i am today.
i am a stronger me today because of who you are and what you've done.

i won't apologise for the angst (whatever you want to call it) in my post tonight.
just felt like ranting today for some apparent reason.
maybe because i'm hooked on to my childhood song, thnks fr th mmrs by fall out boy, again.
so angst that i like it.
nah probably 'cos i've heard some reflective words today too.
well yes, so i guess i'll head to bed now.

goodnight zombies.

bored post for a bored girl

yesss i'm here only because i'm procrastinating.

well, RIGHT after this post i'm going off to study ok!!!

i just finished peeling my garlic sprouts to cook for lunch later :>

mmm yumz i love garlic sprouts they're my favourite veggie of all time, but sadly no one really knows what they are... :(

anyway, i'm lagging behind in the amount of work i've got to finish, and that just sucks.

that's why yesterday i went to create a to-do for today on this app called wunderlist; there's both the phone and web app too!

pretty cool stuff.

oh yeah did i mention i downloaded this super coolass calorie counter & diet tracker app called myfitnesspal too!

it's this FREAKING cool app (and no, i'm not exaggerating) that you can actually log 99.9% of things you eat (it's not 100% 'cos they don't have my super asian veggie garlic sprouts hmmph)!

it's a personalized profile for you to key in your height, weight, desired weight, lifestyle, age blah blah.

so through all this personal data you log into the app they will generate a desired RDC (recommended daily calories LOL THIS WAS MY OWN ACRONYM) for you!

recording down what you eat also becomes a lot more convenient through their barcode scanner function!!!

you can even select your appropriate portions, create your own recipes, and choose from a huge list of exercise routines you engage in.

cool potatoes eh!!!

so i just started this whole calorie thing yesterday and i took in 920cal but burned off 220cal through exercise.

i even had 500cal remaining at the end of yesterday and they told me to EAT MORE....

oh okay if you say so...

meh you may think i'm obsessed with losing weight or something, but honestly no, I'M NOT.

you may say "this kind of people who deny even further are clearly obsessed", oh just shut up.

i honestly need to lose all that belly fat. (AND MY THIGHS AND HIPS ARE GROSS YUCKS K GTG TO STUDY)

will be on airplane mode for the day so i'll most probably be uncontactable :P

byebye.

we're catching lightning in a bottle

hello!

finally the mid-year exams are over and school's out! :)

so happy that that the june holidays are here, i guess everyone out there deserves a nice break from the hectic routine of school life.

well i honestly don't want to think about school.

i know my results are going to be as crappy as it can get 'cos i know i screwed most of my papers up.

looking at how i fared for the chemistry mcqs and gp paper 2, meh, even that tiny gleaming bit of hope has died.

HAHAHA what a joke.

never mind, like i've said before, i'll cross the bridge when i come to it.

since the school break is here, the first thing i would want to do is catch up on my sleep.

this is no joke.

my pimples are AWFUL - time to drink up and sleep more...

need to stop sleeping at 3am oh my god.

how to get rid of this habit ugh... :(

anywayyyy one week of my june holidays have been eaten up by extra lessons back in school.

well honestly i think last week was pretty memorable, 'cos i had so much fun with the class. :)
slacking/not-slacking during pw, being half-awake during the afternoon lectures, having 3-hour breaks like during the temporary timetable (which meant heading out of school for lunch)... haha how can you not love 1sr20.

so anyway here are photos from last wednesday, class photo-taking day :)

i truly enjoyed preparing the words for the class the day before!

as well as cutting and pasting everything, the final product was really amazing!

thanks guys for all your help too woohoo love you all :*

love the effect when everything's put together!!!

oh yeah we decided to take individual mugshots and make a collage out of it :-)

and guess what hahaha i love it so much it's my lock screen & twitter background!

this earned itself 72 likes on instagram too! ^^

so yeah here's the remaining madness of the day - no words can express how much fun i had that day and how much love i felt around the class HAHAHA.

oh my god this is sounding too cheesy but whatever you get the idea :)

we're synonymous with unity!

^ i love the epic-ness of how we always imitate teachers hahahaha it's sooooo hilarious i honestly feel like rofl-ing at times :'D thanks for always being retarded and making me laugh like crazy all the time! if not lessons would be so dull :(

^ my shit buddy yueenn woohoo! :)

^ wazzup girlies i love you all :* mmm okay i guess no amount of filter (2nd photo) can make me a little less tanned oops. but it's okay 'cos it's a photo with my bundles of joy hehe. oh anyway can we all take a moment to admire mavis' face in the above 3rd picture hahahaha the pedo mugger indeed :'D

^ yeah 1sr20's class photo!!! honestly i think the photo was horribly taken hahaha but hopefully it'll turn out great on the dslr :)

^ six girls. yup that's right! HAHA! okay no i'm kidding. but thanks for making recess times a whole bunch of fun guys love you all to the moon and back :)

^ jennee!!! my favourite whatsapp buddy hehe 'cos she is too cute :) love you babyyy thanks for all the epic conversations we have and the times we just spazz together over -ahemz- yup hehehe will always be here for you! *inserts heart-shape here because blogger doesn't allow me to idk why* yeah and our non-stop conversations (especially during chinese class) will always be remembered ~

^ our mugger mavis hahaha! omg it's pretty cool how we became so close when we moved to jc 'cos honestly despite the fact that we've been in the same school for 10 years and in the same class for 7, i think i've never spoken more than 5 sentences to you before lolol omg. glad to be in the same class as you this time and got to know you a lot better! :) CHONVIS FTW. okay just saying ahahahha

^ i adorable or not hahahahahaha jkjk. heheh 3/4 of my wonderful pw group! here's to a great year ahead doing our wr and op together!!! and yay i love your "legendary" patty it's my favourite song woohoo!

^ our silent killer vaneh hahaha!!! thanks for being the best rebuttal everytime SOME THINGS happen -.- honestly i have no idea why everytime when i do stupid things like trip over my own leg or other plain retarded stuff you are always there to witness it HAHAHA oh god so paiseh pls!!!

^ omg pls look at the colour contrast...... ok putting that aside hi maria! our scary big sister who is ever-scary and snappy hahaha you go girl!! thanks for being with me all the way since cg orientation, it's been a great journey and i think i have been influenced by you~ have i become more scary? i hope so HAHAHAH! i am too weak. anw thanks for being such a concerning friend :) really appreciate it.

^ hi divaaaa we should go out to eat more often!!! so we can talk more :-) and yes eat more so you put on the weight you need to as well heheheh

^ the green paper people :) yupppp omg this kid-ding is super ding-dong all the time i swear hahaha see the pun i just made there :P okay anw yup thanks for being a great cg rep and doing everything for us!!! no wonder you aged a 100 years since school started ahahaha :'D

^ hello boss!!! it's been great knowing you hehe! thanks for a nice dinner after timekeeping @ pizza hut :-) really got to know a bit more about you~~ the stories you tell are really epic and funny hahahaha!!! :') thanks boss!

^ ok the photo too dark and i too cui already but anyway, sup sean! THE LITTLE HIPPO HAHAHA. thanks for being sucha loyal friend to us all and always just, not pangseh-ing any of us :) thanks ahhhh hahaha and i think it must be boring to be surrounded by girls all the time eh lol sorry if we get carried away at times :P

^ ahahaha the awkward gap between us lolol! aiya but cannot get too close to chonwey la later mavis jealous :< my mortal wassup!!! i am still awaiting your "surprise" helloooo. so much for 'expecting the unexpected' hahahaha! :P

sorry if this post's kinda personal, but yes i am truly happy where i am now :-)

glad to have moved on.

xoxo 1sr20 we are legendary



on a side note i just made some chocolate truffles hahaha wonder how they'd turn out!!! but i over-boiled the whipping cream damn it. will instagram it later maybe ;-)

changed with change.

^ i guess these truly reflect how i feel and what i want to say

well well.
another point in time when i just feel or crappy and reflective.
it's been almost 6 months since change has pervaded its way through my life.
i honestly do not want to know what change has morphed me into, but whoever i am now, i guess it is all evident and perceptible now.
why is change so cruel?
they say that a broken heart is what changes people.
i've loved and lost, loved those who were really dear to me, but lost it all again because of change.
since the only constant in life is change, i guess i've got to deal with it somehow, in one way or another right?
i think i've handled change poorly, but i honestly can't help it.
as much as i hate new environments, trying to settle in and feel comfortable all over again, it takes time.
but sadly i do not have the patience to wait for time to do its job.
am i bipolar or something???
one part of me says (i feel and know it) that i have accepted, and adapted to change already.
however another part is somehow telling me i am far from settled snugly in change.
screw it, so what is it???
yes no doubt, on the surface it seems like i'm all "yes i'm okay" "i like things the way they are now", i'm certain there's a very small part of me that still cannot let go of the past.
and i guess this is the reason why i've been in such a foul mood the past few days.
i don't want anyone/anything to evoke the nostalgia within me; it's like this chapter in life that i have already closed but yet things just can't move on.
please, just leave me alone will you!!
stop rocking the boat to and fro, will you just let the boat come to a standstill on its own?!
stop, just stop.
ugh.
idk why i am feeling all angst now but i think change has transformed me into someone i can barely recognize, myself.
just let me do what i think is right for now.
eventually when things reach a deadlock i will find my way back to reality okay?
i think whatever i've posted here sounds nonsensical.
see this is the problem with me, the thoughts are all in my head but i can never seem to express myself well enough for people to understand.
it's okay, guess i'll keep trying, get better at this, and one day maybe people will finally understand me...

Life changes every minute of the day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn't ever really your friend. And that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize that all along you've been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this. You do that. You really wish you hadn't done that. You learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad you're you. You love life. You hate life. In the end, you just find yourself to be living life no matter what's thrown at you.

^ this, is so beautifully true. 

time to lose weight

sup guys!
mid-years are almost over, one more paper to go!!!
think i screwed up but whatever ahahaha there's so much more to life than stupid tests....

anyway i'm currently on a weight-loss/dieting/healthy eating plan...
i wouldn't exactly call it dieting, 'cos i'm still eating as per normal, snacking when i'm hungry.
with added exercise and stuff.
i recently started this whole "weight-loss" thing because like i mentioned previously, i have put on an immense amount of weight hahaha.
so yes here's the 5 principles of losing weight the jamie way. ;)
sounds lame huh but let me tell you what i have been doing/plan to do!

wait wait i must lay out my personal reasons/motivations for losing weight riiiiight okok umm here goes.
#1 I HAVE TOO MUCH BELLY FAT SRSLY
#2 I'M BARELY FITTING INTO ALL MY CLOTHES NOW SCREW THIS. THIS IS THE KEY REASON WHY I'M DOING ALL THIS NOW HONESTLY
#3 WILL RUN IS COMING AND I DON'T WANT TO EMBARRASS MYSELF BY BEING THE FIRST PERSON IN SR HISTORY TO NOT FINISH THE DAMN 10KM
#4 TRAIN MYSELF UP FOR SRGCE NEPAL

1. No more bubble tea of any sort

yes. no more bubble tea anymore.

i realised how much i've been patronising both gongcha/drink tea and how i always order the "milk green tea" with added creamy milk on top.

though it tastes awesome, i honestly never considered how much fat goes into one cup of that.

anyway i won't be tempted to buy gongcha/drink tea anymore.

if i'm thirsty, drink water!!!! (or fruit juice as a good alternative)

NO MORE GONGCHA MILK GREEN TEA.

2. No more white bread for breakfast 

what the heck.

this is going to slightly difficult for me to give up - 'cos i love bread soooooo much.

but the amount of carbohydrates in it, is crazy.....

i've recently switched to eating wholemeal/wholegrain bread, and i just bought some breakfast cereal (grains and nuts).

my breakfast everyday from now on is going to be this grain cereal with milk.

and! i have also substituted my favourite meiji white milk to meiji's 0% fat skimmed milk!

thank goodness it tastes the same... :)

so now whenever i'm thirsty, i will only drink this 0% fat milk.

don't know how true their food labels are, but yes, i shall just believe them as they are.

i need to learn to love wholegrain food.

3. Hungry? Fruits only

i notice i get hungry really easily in the wee hours of the night (or is it morning).

being the nocturnal creature i am, i'm usually awake till about 3am in the morning.

yeah i know this is bad for my health, and that i ought to get more sleep 'cause apparently sleeping sufficiently allows you to burn calories hmm, but i can't help it.

i love the quiet and stillness of the night and it's something i don't get to enjoy in the morning.

ok anyway, if i ever get hungry in ungodly hours of the night, i shall eat nothing but fruit.

grapes are my favourite fruit so yes i will eat more of these...

they help to prevent cancer and heart disease!!

and so do oranges help me have a better complexion ;-)

GO AWAY PIMPLES.

4. Learn to love chocolate

ho ho ho!

something i won't find TOO difficult despite the fact that i don't eat chocolate.

not a big fan of it, but i will still eat dark chocolate!

apparently a little bit of chocolate can do me good:

All the raw data suggested that the chocolate eaters should have the heftier BMI. They showed higher calorie intake, ate more saturated fats, and they didn't exercise any more than their non-chocolate counterparts. And yet, no matter how the researchers sliced or adjusted the data to account for potentially confounding variables like age, gender, physical activity, or anything else, chocolate consumption was always linked to a lower BMI. The people who ate chocolate were thinner than those who didn't.

GOOD INCENTIVE AYE?

time to eat some chocolate, but don't worry, i can never be hooked onto it since i don't LOVE it.

yeah baby time to eat the royce chocolate in the fridge!

actually i already do ahahaha

 5. Run regularly

no this cannot be me.

being a lazy indoor couch potato i am for the past 16 years of my life, it's time for a change.

i'm not completely going to evolve into some buff muscular super outdoor fun-in-the-sun athletic enthuasiast overnight...

just want to make it a point to run at least 3 times a week this june holidays.

during school terms there's gonna be crazy PE lessons = training for will run T_T
so yeahhh i will RUN this holiday.

yes i will.

anyway i've started off by running 4.3km on friday and today too!

took 33 mins on friday and improved by a minute or so today.

great achievement jam-ta-to. :) (potato)

KEEP AT IT!

SO HERE'S TO MY WEIGHT-LOSS & KEEP FIT PLAN YES SO FAR I'M STICKING TO IT!

(did i mention i found $10 and used it to buy some slimming pillow ahahaha hilarious i am becoming so gullible and superficial hmmm)

OK YES BREAKFAST FOR TOMORROW!

GREEK  YOGURT WHOLEGRAIN CEREAL WITH SKIMMED MILK YES

ok cya byebye.

got chem to study for still but psh not in the mood to lol.

wasted my past 3 days sigh hope tmrw will be better!

p.s.: love the references and hidden innuendos (ok la it wasn't derogatory!!!) i made in this post teehee

this is going to be one hell of an adventure

it's 1.14am and i have just finished half my vectors 2 tutorial and planned out my schedule for the next 3 weeks or so.
i know it's been a while since i've last written, but i've been so caught up at school i can hardly find breathing space.
much has taken place, and i guess i'll just write about the various aspects of my life.
i shall start of with something that's of high importance but not of utmost priority to me, and that is my academics.

yes so my studies - i can't even find a single word to describe it, i guess i have mixed feelings.
well it's not that i am indifferent towards my tests or that i don't value my results, but it's just that sometimes - my best is all that matters.
i study hard, sit for the test, get the grade and just think hmmm, "it's okay."
sometimes i ought to understand that people are different, and unique in their own way.
and that god didn't give me the smartest brains for a reason.

it can't be helped that i am, let's face it - stupid or slow in catching up in lectures/tutorials.
i do try my best to give my fullest attention but sometimes it's just in vain.
so far i've failed almost every single test/quiz we've sat for.... failed my math lecture test, econs lecture test, functions pop quiz.. i only managed to pass gp.
i guess this is really the norm of jc life - failing all your tests ahhhh.
maybe i'm not trying hard enough, and yeah that could be the reason why i'm doing so badly now.
but well, i know myself best.
sometimes i work too hard that i tire myself out physically and start to fall ill.
i don't want this sort of nightmare to happen again.
obviously i myself know i am not working as hard as i did during the period nearing o's, but i don't think i should work this hard because i'm afraid it's only going to backfire.
so i'll just let nature take its course, i'll give my best in whatever i can, and if that's the result of my best effort, i accept it and know deep down, i tried, genuinely.
barely getting by each day, but it's ok, i'll cross the bridge when i come to it.

anyway did i mention i am really grateful for our subject tutors.
i'm actually quite happy with 1sr20's tutors, especially math.
i am really really really lucky to have such a dedicated math tutor, who's spirit of continuous improvement has really inspired me.
his dedication is really one-of-a-kind, and his patience never runs dry.
how he would always make time for us to have consultations, how he would personalize all our consolidations topically, how he would never fail to help the weaker ones (like me) to improve, how he is ever-understanding.
his unwavering passion to teach us math is huge enough to make me feel guilty whenever i can't do my tutorials or even fail my lecture tests.
the effort he puts in and seeing the results we achieve in return, is really, utterly disappointing.
that's why i want to work hard for math.
i don't want to let our tutor down.
i am sure my class sees the amount of time and effort he has spent on our class, updating our facebook page everyday with tutorial hints, worked solutions to problems etc. etc.
so so grateful for 1sr20's math tutor!!!!
i will work hard for my mid-years.
and at the same time be motivated by :) as much as i can!!!




i guess that pretty much sums up the academic segment of my life.
now here's something more important (to me), and personal, and that is my relationships with the people around me.

1sr20, my class of year 2013.
this class, has really taught me quite a bit despite only being together for what, 2 months plus?
i have made really nice friends here, and i'm happy with where i am now.
though i still find it difficult to let go of my secondary school, the friends i've made in class, is really the reason why i look forward to school everyday.
this class is always full of joy and laughter.
i love the warmth of the class everytime i step in - the jokes we crack, the laughter we share, the silly things we do.
such is the positive side of my jc life.
but as much as i know i can't keep clinging on to the past and that i've got to move on, i sometimes can't help but feel stuck in the middle.
i feel strangely empty inside, because i always feel there's no one i can completely trust/tell everything to.
i know my secondary school friends would have moved on with their current peers and classmates, and so do i have to learn to do so.
but obviously the bond and trust in them is still there, and it's not something that can be built overnight with my jc mates.
don't get me wrong, i do trust my mates but the bond with my secondary school friends is really, irreplaceable.
anyway back to the present (yes i need to stop harping on the past), i've learnt much from just the mere 2-month interaction with my class.
in life, you really, win some and lose some.
life is never going to be easy on you, and you can never have the best of both worlds.
you win some one, but you also have to let go of another.
and this involves decisions, decisions and decisions.
sigh.
i've also learnt much about myself, my strengths and my weaknesses.
after all the interaction with my friends i truly found out more about myself.
my strengths - and how it can be brought out in appropriate times.
my weaknesses - and how i know my actions can bring hurt to others, so i try my best to hold it in.
i did not entirely discover so much about myself by myself (HAHA), but some are which people have told me, and i'm thankful you all did.
this is why i believe in the value of friendship, it's not about just having common topics and interests to bind us together, but it's really about how we learn from one another because we never fail to meet each day!
after saying this, it brings me on to the point about how i need to learn how to manage my time better.
because i am such a friend/people-oriented person, sometimes my priorities are skewed and it's not exactly doing me much good.
like what my mom has said, i do need to cut down the time i spend going out to have dinner with my mates/slacking around after school etc.
i'm not getting sufficient rest (average of 5hours per night ok i know some people get lesser), and i'm finding it hard to cope with the rigour of the jc curriculum.
and yet i'm still gallivanting outside???
yes, life's little pleasures are that of spending time with your friends and building up bonds, but i need to know where to draw the line.
i'll try to reduce the time i spend doing unproductive shit and instead coming back home to rest/revise.
everyone in class has their own unique personality, and it's cool how we can accommodate one another well. (just something i've observed for it being my first time in a mixed school)
yeah so that's my friends in jc, my classmates and my cca mates, really thankful to have crossed paths and be granted the opportunity to know more about one another.
hope that through the friendships i forge i will contribute to a pleasantly memorable 2 years here in srjc!

ok on a more relaxed and less reflective mode, i would like to say that i have put on weight hahahaha.
it's true ah, the first few weeks of formal curriculum (when we just started out), were really days of nothing but pigging out and not exercising.
we had mad jack as a class, seoul garden, ajisen ramen etc.
and the fact that there was the canteen, the good news cafe, the crossroads cafe and the student service centre made the choice of food so wide we had to try almost everything.
oh goodness, and the weight i've gained is immense...... T_T
this started to worry me quite a bit so i do push-ups and sit-ups every night.
did i mention that i'm the most unfit girl in class?
hahahah i do care about that, and i hope i can become fitter for will run and for srgce nepal!
need to start training.... (oh the dreadful days ahead!)
hahaha~!
so yes this has been my thoughts and feelings about the past 2 months and i doubt i'll be able to blog like this anytime soon.
mid-years are in 19 days, and i will have to get serious about my work!!! (Y)
i only have one goal in mind - and that is to promote.
YES I JUST WANT TO PROMOTE!!!
i know i can do this!
work hard jamie!

let's goooooooooooooooo