It's the memories that count.

Tag replies:

24/12
Narcissa: Hehehe yup <3

25/12
Madeline: Awwww thank you so much :) I really appreciate it! <3

27/12
Narcissa: ? I feel inferior.

Friday, 24/12
christmas eve! but i didn't really celebrate it... though my mom bought some cake (but not logcake) which looked like a watermelon. hahah. we didn't even count down for christmas, just a typical ordinary day :(

Saturday, 25/12
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
hahah i got ya! apparently this year i didn't really get anything special i would like to mention, only chocolates and vouchers. but i still appreciate everything! thank you all to those who texted me merry x'mas and those who gave me presents <3 spent the day at aunt's house, barbecue for dinner! (y) but what was most annoying was that it had to RAIN. RAIN! URGH. we didn't manage to barbecue all the food, so there wasn't quite alot :( oh well. so that was pretty much how i spent my christmas.
i wanna barbecue someday again :)

Sunday, 26/12
HAPPY BOXING DAY!
hahaha okay i didn't get 'cha this time. spent the day out at cousin's house. played uno and monopoly deal. super epic. and monopoly deal is damn fun! :) and dinner that night was super good. salmon, baked cheese with beef (i think?), salad, chicken curry, onion rings and soft shell crab. omg damn awesome (y) especially the salmon and onion rings! :D <3 i'm hungry now LOL. so that was pretty much how i spent boxing day ;)

Monday, 27/12
i was supposed to go out with hazel to watch rapunzel but it was canceled :( sorry!!! went out shopping with my parents instead. first stop was prologue@ion, where i got chipboard alphabet stickers and paper whimsies for my scrapbook!!! :) ♥ awesome. i'm so continuing with it later ;) next stop was j8, went to popular and bought my pretty pretty blackboard!!! :D i'm still thinking whether i should chuck out my old whiteboard. it's like 7 years old i think? hahah, shall decide about that soon. ;)

Tuesday, 28/12
had cca this morning from 9-12. i still need to brush up on my 2nd song. i've practised hard but this ain't enough, i gotta go even further. hope i can get my personal harp stringed soon (it snapped when i didn't even touch it, just my luck!). stayed back for awhile to do up the harp board with madeline, lee dea and charmaine. and taaa-daah! we succeeded! it looks awesome now, thanks to maddy's wonderful painting skills :) haha! harp is ♥ :)

and oh, did i mention i sooooo love Sassafras Lass? :)

Life's just so unfair.

Tag replies:

20/12
Gillian: No prob bunz, i'll always be here for you :)

21/12
Sabrina: Hello! :)

23/12
Abigail: Hi Abby! Thanks! :)

i'm going to blog my heart out today.
so many things ran through my mind.

i don't know about any of you guys, but have you all ever felt so inferior? like the worst among your friends, your schoolmates etc. i bet you all must have. but this time i don't know why, this feeling hit me real hard. it hit so hard that i almost wanted to cry. sometimes i feel that i'm always the one who fails at everything. i'm not good at anything, i just feel that i have so many flaws that i can directly point out by just looking at me and things i do. sometimes i feel that i'm stupid, like really stupid. when i'm being compared to, or more of just the fact that i'm mentally doing so, it kind of hits me that i'm not a very smart kid. i don't get very good grades, and i hate it when i'm being compared to with others. at times i really hate the fact that i wasn't born as smart as some people. i feel so left out and helpless. and no matter how hard i try, i just cannot get the grade, while the smart ones can easily ace tests without even studying for them. i think life is really unfair. i really feel that i'm a good-for-nothing. i'm not pretty, i'm not talented, i'm not smart. yeah you all may say, oh, you learn music, but so what? i'm just the average kid-next-door who happens to learn piano. fine, and sometimes people think i'm a nerd just because i look like one and i act like one. don't people get it that i'm studying so hard because i don't want to look like a failure in front of everyone? i don't want to get laughed at, or especially being compared to. what. like i even have a plus point of myself that i can talk about. i really feel small next to some of you. fine, i may not get the same grades like you, but at least i try. and no one even seems to care a thing.

i feel even smaller standing next to you, knowing how much respect you command. i feel like i'm this loser who's being hated and criticised on every minute of people's lives, like as though this society doesn't have a place for me, this nerd. fine, i'm a nerd. whatever you want. you're smart. full stop. all i can say is that life is unfair, really unfair, because some people are born with everything, the brains, the beauty, the talents etc. while some others are just.... forget it. all i know is i feel stupid standing next to you.

the next thing i wanna talk about is, have any of you ever felt like your efforts you put in have gone to waste? i'm not trying to blame or pinpoint anybody here, because it happens all the time. you put your heart and soul into something, but then it turns out like it was nothing? like everything you visioned in your mind crumbles down to rocks, and you cannot do anything about it? i don't get it, what is this? just because of a few people everything turns out in a mess. never mind i'm going to move on from this topic.

and today got me thinking. so many things ran through my mind. this question that got me thinking was, 'what is a leader?' i asked myself this question many times, and also asked myself many rhetorical questions. shouldn't a leader be someone who takes initiative? shouldn't a leader be a good role model? shouldn't a leader be someone who respects everyone including themselves? shouldn't a leader be someone who has enthusiasm to serve? shouldn't a leader be committed to whatever he/she's doing? i don't know, but of course nobody is perfect. at times we make mistakes, and definitely cannot fulfill all those at one time. i'm not perfect either. but we should at least have the basics rooted down within us right? the basics are what ignite the sparks in us to lead & serve. so i don't understand, if the basics aren't even there, how can he/she qualify as a leader? sometimes i make too many mistakes myself, but i'm trying to learn. which explains the picture of my blog post today. change never ends, and i hope to become a better person each day, just like how everyone else will learn from their own experiences too.

thanks blog, for always being here when i need to do some serious ranting.
and my readers for tolerating my post when i get too frustrated at times.

Just the way you are.

Tag replies:

18/12
Phoebe: Hello potato! Love you too :)

hey dah peeps! i'm back from..... cruise! it was quite fun, but one thing i regretted was not trying out the water slide. it looks super fun ok! the stupid slide closed at 6pm (which i didn't know), and we went there at about 6.15pm -_- annoying! :@ so, just like that i missed the chance to ride on that super fun... thing. LOL. so anyway, just being random about the stuff i'm actually doing right now... the progress of my scrapbook is, a bit faster than a snail ;) i'm reading up a bit about nutrition too, it's kinda like at my own pace, just that i guess i won't have enough time to finish up what i borrowed. my homework's got a little progress, now i'm only left with chapter 4 and 5's mindmaps for crickcrackmonkey and the history report. i'd better do my history up on tuesday, the mindmaps can wait... for a study date :) i hope there'd be one. -wink- recently i found very nice songs, like 'heartbeat' and 'chemistry', though they're not exactly the newest songs around :) i might add a blog playlist soon? or maybe change my blogskin. hehe, shall see what time permits me to do! bye! :)

So baby keep my heart beating.

Tag replies:

15/12
Gillian: Hi bunz <3 Yeah it's awesome! My toe skin all came off hahahah.

16/12
Jialin: Hello! :) <33333

Meita: Hi! Thanks! :)

hi everyone! i'm going on a cruise again later haha! it's a weekend one. and hopefully it won't be as crowded as before :) ooh and lisa just uploaded this super sexy photo of homin endorsing for marie claire! super sexy i tell ya ;) and ya know what, my tongue just turned numb, like at the tip. :o i was eating ice to soothe my dry lips but then it got stuck to my tongue, and i tried to pull it off, and now it's numb. it even had a small cut and bled a little!!!! :( scary. but after i ate a magnum mini it's okay now haha. anyway i feel like i've neglected my blog (for twitter), but i'll try to post as much as i can before school reopens, it's less than 2 weeks. and i still have 2 more lit mindmaps and history to go. i'm so dead. ah well. anyway i got so bored that i'm did this. haha! i did one for my in-time-to-come blog url ;) which i guess won't be that soon :D



bye!

Now I'm feeling so fly like a G6.

Tag replies:

10/12
Yeewah: Hi to you and Monkey! :)

Narcissa: HAI NANA <3 [;

#nowplaying - painting flowers by all time low
teehee, i love that song, sorta my favourite from atl. :) talking about songs, i haven't really been catching up with mtv, actually, it's more of because i find that songs these days are terrible. they're about nothing but indecent stuff, which i shall not mention here. :/ anyway my life's been kinda boring, as usual, haven't really got a lot of homework done, but it's okay cos' there's gonna be another study date tmr with yeewah & radiant! :) cca's stopped temporarily for now, and will resume on the 28th... i need to take this time to practise.

sentosa yesterday with bunz, stacy, sheryl and madeline! super fun :) i got like buried in sand by them hahahaha :) which made me feel super dirty. had hotdogs for lunch and then we went to play in the water!!! ^^ and i got dragged by stacy and sheryl far far away lah! but at least there was a float :) i felt so super helpless ok hahah. me and madeline planned to stay on shore but those two dragged us in >:( bunz was with them but at least she tried to help me hahaha! bunz pwn. :D we played monkey with stacy's float, but for a short while only :( stacy and sheryl stayed in the water for like what 3 hours! me, bunz and madeline already got up to change after 1-2 hours or so hahah! the toilet was super far!!! i guess we changed for like 1 hour lmao. we were waiting and waiting for those two to get out of the water and change, we got so bored that we went to buy ice cream and popcorn to eat teehee >:) then the leftovers of popcorn give stacy and sheryl rofl. after eating like a pig, we decided not to wait for those two crazy nutcases who wanted to get tanned and so we left sentosa first. :) it was quite confusing as we didn't really know the way... :/ oh well, at least we got home safely. :) let's go out again guys! <3


i super agree with this tweet! i dream about stuff every night, and it's disappointing to wake up finding it was just.... a dream. like how i dreamt about someone giving me a pink polaroid camera for my birthday, like how i dreamt about dbsk coming to singapore but apparently no one was there so i took a picture with them, like how i dreamt about lollipop coming to singapore and having a heart-to-heart talk with them, like how i dreamt of psle year all over again and me getting 260+, like how.... oh.

ah well. sucks to be me, huh?

Always Keep The Faith.

Tag replies:

07/12
Yeewah: You have a blog! Yay! :) I'll link you!

Madeline: Hehe I hope it'll be fun too! :) <3 I've yet to ask my parents though hahaha.

hi readers. i've been busy this week again. :( monday... let's see aye, i think i was omg i forgot -_- STUPID ME. okay nvm, moving on, tuesday i had cca. and it was so stressful. ms wong picked on the harp1s again :( i really need to practise harder, i think i suck. but i think the syf and the blisters are gonna kill me T_T but it's okay, i am going to try!!! after cca we stayed back for quite a while to do up the harp board. i was kinda angry cos' of my cramps :@ super pain okay! and also when i realised almost all the harpists except for whaleshark and teddybear turned their back on us about the following day's playtime @ owl's. >:( all pangseh us lor. sian :'( but who cares, the four of us had loads of fun baking and playing heehee! :) sorry owl for messing up your kitchen! :P the cheesecake turned out okay, surprisingly! ^^ we harpists are awesome at baking! hehe! then today, had piano in the morning, then went out to school to buy books, then headed to j8 for study date! had lunch at the library cafe and then we found a table at the 4th floor! awesome :) today was quite productive considering the fact that i finished 80% of the chinese paper. i did the 40 mark question okay! i was so focused hahaha. i'm so gonna chiong my b compre tmr. :(

anyway, i heard about the news on twitter that snsd won some disk daesang thing at some award ceremony. the sones are all happy and jumping, but apparently the elfs were kinda upset and even felt guilty about suju not getting the award.. but after seeing @TVXQfacts' tweets, i felt kinda sorry for the elfs, but then again felt even more sad when i thought of dbsk. what is dbsk now? jyj and homin. it's not how it's supposed to be. dbsk is five, it is jaejoong, yunho, changmin, yoochun and junsu, together. at least suju is performing on stage, but what about dbsk? :'( -sob- but the bond between CassieElfs kinda inspires me... haha, anyway congrats to snsd for winning disk daesang!





(look at changmin, so cute here ♥ :P)





always keep the faith. ♥

note: i am not an elf, and neither am i a sone or whatever you call the fans of snsd :)

xoxo.

Put your hands up.

Tag replies:

04/12
Jialin: Hello ♥ Nope it's sogurt @ Nex! Super awesome! :)

hello. haven't blogged in quite awhile. don't really have much to talk about. hmm let's see, my scrapbook's progress is like snaily. i've only completed like five pages, but i must say it's a job well done! ;) i put in alot of effort in doing this, so it had better turn out good :D but the thing is i still have 30+ photos to go :( oh well. and i need to finish up my homework pretty soon, it's been left rotting since november. i need to chiong lit once i get the book, but i heard it's super cheem. :( okay whatever, anyway i would die for one of these wobbuffet shirts! :)))



SUPER CUTE RIGHT! I KNOW. just look at my twitter page & you'll see the wobbuffet craziness of me teehee. nom-ing on oranges now. and i got a dbsk poster!!! ♥ heehee yay. i put it up with my boys like girls one too <3 gonna check out youtube now, cos' i have nothing to blog about, and imma watch kevjumba, check out new music vids, or maybe even watch smurfs/family guy haha :) k that's about it, cya! can't wait for wednesday! ♥

It all comes down to love.

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29/11
Gillian: Haha really? Cool! :) How's it going?

hello! i just changed my skin :) it's not really one of the newest skins around but yeah, i think it's quite nice! i just re-edited quite alot of stuff, because originally, it was a geeky skin haha! i might change the picture on top left column as it would get boring after awhile. so yeah. anyway, i went to nex with rad&haz and it was super crowded -_- walked around popular and i managed to buy a scrapbook! YES. and that low-fat, no i should say, non-fat yogurt is damn good! it's one of a kind, and it's totally awesome. you DIY your own yogurt! it's really self-service, the toppings are really nice, especially the waffle crumbs! :) after walking around much, we went to food junction to stop by for yongtauhu. i love it superduper alot yo. :) then had fries at macs too haha. went home after much window-shopping and caught the amazing race! nick was totally a _______ there okay. seriously. vicki was trying so hard and all he did was grumble, complain and left her to do everything. what a guy gay. so because his guyness gayness, they have a six-hour penalty the next leg, which is totally stupid.

and btw kevjumba's new video is out!



enjoy! ;)

I just need somebody to love.

Tag replies:

24/11
Abigail: Hi! :) Thanks & np! :D

Jialin: Hi my passing-notes-partner! ;)

26/11
Narcissa: Nana! Miss you too! :(

Happy birthday Mel! ♥ (on right)

thanks for being such an awesome friend, i love you alotalotalotalotalot! ♥ keep in touch yeah! :)



hi peepos. sorry for the lack of updates! let me blog my heart out today ok? ;) i promise it'll be a fulfilling and lengthy post :) really sorry that i couldn't find the time to blog as i was away at camp and out shopping the whole of today and yesterday, i was hooked onto sims 3 haha!

Wednesday
i was re-watching brown sugar macchiato with radiant! haha, we stopped at i think episode 3, and guess we're gonna continue next week ;) bsm is like the awesomest taiwan drama ever, and i've watched it like 3-4 times, i'm still not sick of it ^^ oh! and we watched dbsk vids too haha! radiant, come my house someday then we watch dbsk dramas tgt! :D after youtubing i played sims, thanks shanhui for the cd btw! :) i'm like super addicted to it now. ;) hehe, and i think that's all i did for the day.

Thursday
set off in the morning to have brunch with rebekah, karina and amanda! me and amanda were like half an hour late... oops! sorry! actually i wasn't very hungry cos' i had salad for breakfast (and it was great!) so i just had mcwings. ugh but it was super filling... okay so anyway, we went back to school to gather for the sec1camp planning retreat. that day we did quite a bit of planning and presentations, so it got a bit tiring. the chalet however, was super gross and dirty, the toilet had grime and stains on the floor, and there were insects all over the place. EWWW. but at night it was super shiok, cos' there was air-con! :) awesome~ and dinner was rather good! hokkien mee + banana haha! but i think the hokkien mee flipped my stomach around cos' at night i had a terrible stomachache. :( then after i pooped yihui was like, "eh i think now i also got stomachache leh" HAHAHAHA. she's super funny la! :) we watched bsm for awhile at night too~ and as usual, i didn't get much sleep that night.

Friday
had another round of planning, presentations and briefings which kinda tired me out cos' of the lack of sleep :( nonetheless it was a fruitful and productive camp, and i did have fun! :) so after the camp the same four people who went for brunch, went for lunch at white tangerine this time :) the food is quite good, and it's quite worth it :) coincidentally met people from 2-1, radiant and hazel were there too! so me and rad went to the 'church' again hahahaha! it's just like window-shopping :( went home and played sims again haha. and my sim gave birth! awesome.

Saturday
Sims and did piano theory the whole day! oh, and practised 'sonata' on piano too :)

Sunday
went out the whole day today. shopped @ ion orchard! gosh i tell that place is super nice to shop ok!!! bought clothes from cache&cache (i love that shop now) and scrapbook materials from prologue! :) didn't really shop the whole mall cos' there wasn't really much time... hehe. but i was quite happy with today's shopping hahaha!

ok that's about it, i'm going to nex with radiant and hazel tmr, hope to find a nice scrapbook there! bye bye! xoxo.

Scrapbook of memories.

hi everyone! i'm back to blog. had cca this morning, and it was kinda crappy... cos many of the seniors didn't come, so our volume was like quite soft because we weren't very sure of how to play 'la vida breve'. so apparently harp 1s got into quite a bad shape just now, she kept asking us to practise and replay bar and bar over again. sigh... i would have played properly if not for my blood blister. oh well, it's time to pull up my socks as syf's approaching. and since i'm gonna develop photos, so i've decided on something i want to do! (apparently this was inspired by brown sugar macchiato :P)



A SCRAPBOOK OF MEMORIES! :) i'm gonna develop photos of my friends and then i'll compile and decorate the book and keep it for memory's sake! ain't that cool! ;) haha, okay. lastly, i think they make a great couple :) yes i know this is from brown sugar macchiato and it's vintage for nuts but yeah, i think the two of them are super cute tgt! and yes, they're both called Xiao Jie :)



筱婕 and 小傑 ftw! :)

yayyyyyyyyyyyy okay sims 3 just finished downloading! off to play now, bye!!!

Don't stop, make it pop.

Tag replies:

15/11
Gillian: YO YO YO YO :)

omg i promised to blog yesterday but i didn't... sorry! i was re-watching brown sugar macchiato cos' i was super bored, and i got hooked onto it! it's like the best drama ever, i've watched it like 3 times and i never get bored of it :) i'm currently watching episode 9, and i hope to finish watching it tonight so tmr i can do my newspaper article reviews and read dbsk 'happy family' fanfics :)))thanks owl! btw, this week was a busy one, had cca on tuesday and friday. :( it was pretty freaky how a blood blister formed on my right index finger on friday, and apparently almost everybody had a blister. it was like 'blister day'... we usually don't get blisters. hmmm... okay. and on wednesday we went to east coast park to cycle! clique '08 totally pwns man. thanks radiant and sharon for bothering to ride a tandem bike with me :) i am going to learn how to cycle, for real. stacy wanna learn with me? ;) okay, then on thursday i went out shopping for the whole day and bought quite a few clothes, the international buffet was awesome too! :) then saturday i finished my summary and watched brown sugar macchiato the whole day. this morning i went to m'sia, and got myself skirts and pens (not pants). and btw! i didn't know about this since friday, and i'm still reeling with shock.

Rumours of Lollipop disbanding, the 6 now is in different managing companies AoQuan, XiaoYu, WeiLian and AWei is signed under Gold Typhoon while WangZi and XiaoJie is signed under A Legend Star, there’s also rumours of Andy who created Lollipop complained to someone privately.

End of last month, the 4 members appeared at an event at Hong Kong and was greeted by an “ungrateful” banner. Facing such rumours, splitting up is already confirmed.

News from a reporter, WangZi and XiaoJie has already moved out of Lollipop’s apartment. Their time of sticking together 24 hours and the heart of working hard together is the past now. Their private life is now split into 2, looks like the only time to see them together is during on stage.

WangZi and XiaoJie's manager, Andy, admitted that they have already moved last month. “Because WangZi need to film and XiaoJie will have his own plan, so now is the time to fight for themselves, their goals are different.” MaoDi is also under A Legend Star, their new house will be at DaAnQu and MaoDi will also be living with them. “WangZi and MaoDi are biological brothers therefore they can take care of each other.”

-extracted from lollicraze.wordpress

why must this happen! i never knew wangzi and xiaojie left lollipop till friday and this was old ancient news from january 2010. well, fyi, lollipop was one of the first boy bands i actually went crazy about. and my bias was aoquan ;) ok so anyway, my lollipop 'fever' suddenly came back because i'm re-watching brown sugar macchiato, and i went to read up about them, which was when i realised the current lollipop has been renamed to lollipop f, where the f stands for four people and forever. reading this almost made me want to burst into tears. it sucks to know that the bands i actually love and believe in (e.g.: DBSK), split up. (i won't use the word disband because i still believe in them) it sucks to know that they (lollipop) aren't together as 6, and even renamed themselves to something that truly excluded the other 2 members. how much i used to love lollipop, and waited for their 2009/2010 album to be released, and how much i listened to their songs. despite this heartbreaking news, i will still continue to support and believe in the 6 of them, even though 2 have left, they are and always will be, a part of lollipop. when i went to listen to one of their old songs titled '我们之间', it makes me sad to see that what they once promised to do, to 'overcome all obstacles together as one' and to 'reminisce the happy memories' have become the part of the past. i've posted the video below, do take a look at the lyrics, because they're really meaningful. :')



okay, i'm gonna continue watching my drama, gotta go now. imma watch the guiwang scenes tonight cos' it's gonna be super touching :'( see you guys soon :)

i will always believe in dbsk & lollipop ♥

Primary School Prefects' Camp ♥

Tag replies:

12/11
Abigail: Hello! :)

hey all, i'm back! did you guys miss me, i bet you did. ;) hahaha anyway, cruise was fun, but it was reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally crowded. which totally annoyed me -_- ok anyway all i did on the cruise was eat, sleep, breathe, play, swim, walk and eat more. hahaha i know, it sounds really boring, but i had fun nonetheless :) i wanna go again yay~ if jaz goes, then yeah, it'll be cool. and btw, pspc was awesome. and i really mean awesome. the primary school kids were really quiet at first, but soon opened up as time went by. a boy named jason, he's p5 and has a dream of opening a pet shop. how this little kid dreams big really calls for inspiration. he didn't eat breakfast, he didn't even want milo, and he just sat there, reading a book about dogs. jason, though i know you won't see this, but i hope to see your pet shop one day! :) really love these kids. group 1 ftw ♥ i miss everyone. i've learned much as a facilitator co-leading the group alongside with keely and jiaqi. seeing the kids have so much fun really touches my heart :') besides growing as a leader, i had loads of fun with everyone! talking to yihui, bi ting and ashley about fillet fish & canned potatoes. ;) ashley even fell to the floor laughing hahaha! gosh, this is why i love inside jokes hehe. and yihui's really funny, and CHILDISH ;) hahahaha, poking charilyn was really funny :) we were laughing at my fat tummy haha! all in all, pspc's really a fun learning experience, and it has really taught me things beyond the classroom. stepping up to lead the primary school prefects was really eye-opening, and at the same time, really heartwarming to see how these little kids have so much enthusiasm and joy in them. :) i hope that there'll be another camp like this! i love pspc ♥

Six feet under the stars.

Tag replies:

09/11
Jialin:　Yeah!! :( Omg I miss #teamjumba! :'( (x10000000000000)

10/11
Madeline: Haha np :) Heehee thanks! This is like a Blogger template :P

Photo credits to Celeste!

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY JAIME! ♥
Love you :)

hi kids. i won't be blogging for let's say 3 to 4 days? reason is because i'm going on a cruise! :) i can't blog when i get back from cruise on friday afternoon cos' i have a primary school prefects camp! :) hope things would be fun then. this camp also takes up my whole saturday too, so i can't blog. :( okay anyway, if i can find wireless connection on the cruise ship, i'll definitely tweet :) today wasn't exactly the most productive day, but at least i finished discussing the games for sec1camp with jasley! :) heehee yay :) btw, i still don't know what to pack for the planning retreat on the 25th haha! i didn't copy the packing list the other day.. guess i gotta go ask someone soon. and like i mentioned in my previous post, #teamjumba was eliminated from the amazing race :'(



i'm gonna miss them on amazing race, and the show would have just lost like 90% of their viewers. #teamjumba's really funny, @kevjumba's funny but his dad's even funnier heehee :) love their charisma and their bond. it's really sweet :) gotta love @kevjumba's vids yeah!

You make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream.

Photo credits to Celeste!

Today's the 8th of November 2010, and it's this SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR cute girl's birthday!!! :)

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY CHRISTABEL! ♥
Love you :)

hi readers. lol i have no readers actually. fine but i'll still blog. today was a fun day, but i'm really busy this holidays... needa come up with loads of plans and proposals for the games in sec1camp. there's also the pspc, cca, sec1registration etc etc etc! omg :( so many things to do sigh. and i haven't started on my holiday homework, let alone make a checklist. oh gosh. ok i think i need to stop using so much computer. but actually i can live without it, recently i've been really addicted to pokemon on ds/gba! i'm like playing sapphire on gba and diamond on ds. okay i know gba is like what, vintage but seriously pokemon is super fun. i'm training linoone to lvl100 now heehee. :) <-- omg i realised this is the first smiley of the paragraph. hahaha, emo me. ok i'm starting to talk crap... and btw! today #teamjumba got eliminated :'( x100000000000000000000000 omg the amazing race would be so not amazing anymore :( ahhhhh miss #teamjumba!! okay nvm, shall go watch @kevjumba's vids later on youtube yay :) bye!

Run baby run, don't ever look back.

Tag replies:

01/11
Elaine: Relinked! :)

FINALLY. SOMEONE TAGGED MY BLOG. thanks elaine :) oh my goodness i'm bored to tears. seriously, maybe i should just delete my blog, nobody tags me anyway -_- actually i was supposed to do loads of things today, chemistry homework, piano theory, print out a holiday homework checklist, confirm harp practice timings, download my songs and etc etc etc! omg there's just so much to do in such a short amount of time. this is super annoying. ok, anyway tmr must go back to school to return report book... this week's gonna be a super super boring week i bet, i think i need to be stupid and come up with a timetable for myself to stick to so i don't keep using the computer. ok i think i'm so bored that i'm gonna watch my channel 8 drama hahaha. and i was supposed to re-watch aadbsk3 today zzz -_- and apparently i didn't. ok whatever i'm blogging about stupid crap. gosh someone tag me please. bye.

I will never say never.

haven't blogged in ages but i don't really bother cos' nobody tags me :( btw school has ended already and i'm super sad k! :'( 2-2 split up into all the classes... ahhh! but at least i have some close friends in my class next year. :) ok this is boring. btw i turned 14 a week ago hehehe! :) had the greatest b'day ever, thanks alot everyone <3 had strings concert on that day too... but apparently i fell kinda sick and wasn't really feeling very well that weekend... had cca today, practised syf songs again.. and apparently im gonna be very busy this hols! lol surprising. haha anyway tmr im going universal studios with s&u too... i bet i'm gonna scream till i cry.... i'm gonna get scarred for life :( i'm so scared now too hahaha ok whatever bye!!

With you I'd dance in a storm.

hi guys. haven't blogged in a couple of days. i didn't wanna blog cos' i wasn't in a good mood........ k so anyway, it's because of somebody again. and i thought that not blogging about it would make me forget about everything... it sort of worked, but then things don't seem to be getting any better these days, so i don't really see a point in not blogging about it. but no, i'm not gonna blog about emo crap here ok?! i am gonna hide somewhere which no one knows.... haha k whatever i think i'm talking crap. strings concert this friday!!!! <3 i needa practise hard tmr and friday afternoon :) harpists ily all! <3 today's sex ed was quite okay hahaha, much better than last year! there's financial literacy tmr hahahaha. hope i don't get too bored then hehe. k bye. i realised nobody tags me anyway, so i don't see a point in blogging -_-

Take it easy.

what's up yo. i think i need a chill pill. i'm getting too worked up about trivial things these days. ahhh, maybe it's because of subject combinations. i still have not decided what to take yet, i mean i sorta decided already but i haven't filled in the option form yet. i am going to fill it in later i promise. it's only 2.54pm and i'm actually quite tired... i got loads of stuff to do later. experiment with tunes for innoweek, fill in my subject combinations for real, pack my bag and practise harp. omggggg so many things to do :( oh by the way JYJ dropped by Singapore yesterday omg!!!!!!! why didn't i go :( i was at school ushering people instead, oh well :( but still i had fun :) they arrived in sg at about 1.20pm and they stayed at swissotel omg so cooooooool. i heard the performance was a blast but they were really strict about copyright issues. no photography/videos were allowed and guards were stationed all around the place. oh and i heard many people who bought the vip tix were very upset because they weren't even entitled an autographed photo, only a handshake :( can you imagine if changmin came zomg. i will faint man. but sadly he isn't :( oh well, always keep the faith! :) haha, k that's about it, bye!

Utter meltdown.

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Abigail: Thanks :)

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Fiona: Thanks :)

hi guys. today was innoweek again. hahah, kinda boring but at least we got loads of work done! :) lyrics are already settled!! and we booked a macbook for monday to work on our song so i guess we got most of the work covered :) today twin plaited my fringe hehe, ily. <3 anchi and sarah also kept buffing their nails hahah. and btw nana i can give you your present on monday! it's not wrapped though, sorry :( obtw we got our subject combination forms today. super scary, cos' i am veryvery confused on what to take next year :( i hope i just get into my desired combination, i'd work hard.. please. i don't wanna split from s&u!! :'( anchi, gillians, amanda, stacy, sheryl and yingxia omg nooooooooooo we need to bond more before we split!! sob. :( till now i'm not very sure if anyone close to me wants to take the same combination as me... btw had cca after school, practised for strings concert again. :) thank goodness my parts are easy :) and tmr i have some event to usher, just hope i'd keep my mind off subject combinations. btw you, stop testing my patience. i've got my limits too ok. go away.

Don't miss me when I'm gone.

hello hello. founder's day today, i had ushering duty. again my feet hurt but i've tasted more pain than that. 12hrs in 2.5 inch heels, carrying harps. :( after founder's day service, radiant, hazel and me went to j8 for lunch. macs, comics connection & library. went home at about 3.45, feet ached like crap :/ that's all today, but i'm gonna blog 'bout something else too..

sometimes i really wonder if i even existed for a purpose. i don't see the point of living if you aren't even given the respect you deserve. people who don't respect you, don't respect your feelings and don't respect your heart. now i know how people who are outcasts of their classes/ccas feel. lonely, depressed and crushed. for once i actually stepped into their shoes, and actually knew how it felt to be criticised, commented and degraded. everyone has feelings, you, you, you and me too. don't bring me down, though i know you hate me. at times i also wished i was never part of this. all i get is emotional torture, and i even have to tolerate everybody's nonsense. all those words you've said to me will never be forgotten. i just hope you could stop it, but though i will forgive, i will never forget. just a little note for you that if you really hate someone it would be nice to keep it to yourself. fine, if you couldn't do it then don't shove those words into my face. one day i hope someone will throw it back to you. thanks for hurting me.

Some pretty cool stuff ♥

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Narcissa: Heheh so cute right! :P Yup I really liked the card! Thank you so much Nana ♥

Pretty cool stuff! :)
Learning to appreciate life more.
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the paper cranes are so pretty :)







THESE GREETING CARDS ARE SO PRETTY OMG CAN THEY BE PRINTED ON SHIRTS OR SOMETHING!



i.want.the.socks.



this shirt is so boomz.



if only i had these awesome candy/gumball machines in my house. :)



VINTAGEPOLARIODCAMERA OMG!



cupcakes yum!



omg starbucks' cups are so awesome. how i wish i had a bottle like that :)





the tees are so fab.



the shoes are so cute!



friends are the sunshine of my life. :)




i want the socks and the bears!! :(



found this really eye-catching.



living in such houses would be so cool, i'd live in the pink one and all my friends could stay in the rest. ;)



I WANT THIS MULTI-COLOURED SHOELACE AND THIS PAIR OF SHOES OMGGGGGGGG.



post-its make me HAPPY.



pretty pretty.



i love the shoes! the colour is awesome.



wow @ the macbook, blackberry and iphone :(



IF I EVER HAD AN IPOD LIKE THAT I WOULD WANT THIS COVERRRRR.



miss those times where we played vintage gameboycolors ;)