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but the idea of phone calls in society today have become something so obsolete that it feels so foreign.
when i was younger i used to anticipate with excitement all the phone calls i would get after school everyday.
i loved chatting with my best friend on the phone for hours at no end, narrowing the physical distance between us while we both watched a tv programme together.
i felt so much closer when i spoke with her on the phone as we shared laughter, made innocent remarks and formed childlike opinions about the show.
as i grew older the frequency of phone calls declined too, as with my enthusiasm for socializing.
gradually my phone calls with friends have reduced itself to nothing but a mere solemn discussion about academics, wracking our brains to solve challenging questions or just discussing over group projects.
there was nothing like a good ol' phone call that rang with light-heartedness.
it was quite sad to see such a priceless tradition die away like that.
i am indeed a real sucker for genuine heart-to-heart talks but where are they now?
everything has been stored in our mobile memory in the whatsapp application.
in the past we'd be like:
"hey! i'll call you once i'm home!!!!!"
"ok!"
and now we're like:
"ah i'll just whatsapp you later"
it's a real pity that everything is done over whatsapp.
there's no more spontaneous unreluctant phone calls that warm up your heart, there's no more exchanging of house telephone numbers.
it's sad how we're talking to our phones rather than to the intended party itself.
it's like as if our phone has become our messenger and everything is so robotic nowadays.
we punch in something we want to convey and punctuate it with appropriate emoticons in hopes that our friend could make out what we were feeling there and then, command our phones to 'send' the message and boom, our friend receives the message.
sometimes i cringe at myself for constantly using whatsapp. in fact i think the whole online chat community should feel ashamed of yourself.
i hate conversing via whatsapp, like really.
and i hate myself for using it so much even though i detest it.
communication has become so regimental and half-hearted because it's no longer unsolicited like before.
over the phone we would just speak so freely but at the same time we'd know what to say and when because we can control our words.
however over online chats it's become so much like writing an essay rather than speaking freely.
*crafts message* *deletes message* *crafts message again* *sends message after 99 times of editing*
it's like we were being forced into perfecting our words into a politically correct/socially acceptable answer instead of opening our mouths without constraint.
the latter i believe, is the true art of human connection.
there is always that loophole of online chatting - misunderstanding.
so much for the vagueness of interpreting one's emotions by conjecturing stupid theories of "oh no she last seen on me so she must be angry".
the invention of the emoji keyboard isn't serving its purpose very well either, everything can be so easily concealed with the touch of a finger.
why play guess and check when you can clearly tell how one feels when he/she speaks to you?
sometimes we fail to understand that the spoken voice is so much more powerful than written words, and it's sad.
miss having someone i could call readily/anytime i wanted and he/she would be there to listen :(
working hasn't been altogether relaxing (i mean, when is work ever chill LOL) but it definitely has been enriching and rewarding.
i never expected myself to even inch into the field of teaching because i know it really isn't my cup of tea.
i cannot stand having to deal with students because it not only is stressful on the academic part but there's also the aspect of emotional stress.
i've never liked kids and i don't think i will...
but unexpectedly (and to my own surprise), i can't believe i've landed up in this tuition job.
at the same time not only am i teaching others but i myself have learnt a lot.
as a super hot-tempered person myself this was probably the key reason why i couldn't picture myself in this job.
but over the months i have learnt how to deal with students of different personalities.
the extroverted ones and the extremely-quiet ones - each and every student that i've chanced upon at the centre is really so different but i'm glad to have crossed their paths.
whether i am teaching them personally or not i must say that i really love interacting with all these kids.
love in the sense that because i know this is kinda temporary a job, but yet i want to make as much difference in these kids as possible.
i want to be their friend and someone they can look up to/look for in times of need because we've been through all the joy and hardship of school life.
but no i won't teach for a living hahaha too stressful.
also it's made me more sensitive/aware about the things i say and do because afterall, i'm a teacher and they're my students.
like who knows if one darned word from my mouth scarred them for life.... oh no the repercussions are scary hahaha.
the best part about this is probably having my friends with me to teach alongside too :-)
when you have your old pals and new friends with you, that's a happy life :-)
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