It's the memories that count.

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24/12
Narcissa: Hehehe yup <3

25/12
Madeline: Awwww thank you so much :) I really appreciate it! <3

27/12
Narcissa: ? I feel inferior.

Friday, 24/12
christmas eve! but i didn't really celebrate it... though my mom bought some cake (but not logcake) which looked like a watermelon. hahah. we didn't even count down for christmas, just a typical ordinary day :(

Saturday, 25/12
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
hahah i got ya! apparently this year i didn't really get anything special i would like to mention, only chocolates and vouchers. but i still appreciate everything! thank you all to those who texted me merry x'mas and those who gave me presents <3 spent the day at aunt's house, barbecue for dinner! (y) but what was most annoying was that it had to RAIN. RAIN! URGH. we didn't manage to barbecue all the food, so there wasn't quite alot :( oh well. so that was pretty much how i spent my christmas.
i wanna barbecue someday again :)

Sunday, 26/12
HAPPY BOXING DAY!
hahaha okay i didn't get 'cha this time. spent the day out at cousin's house. played uno and monopoly deal. super epic. and monopoly deal is damn fun! :) and dinner that night was super good. salmon, baked cheese with beef (i think?), salad, chicken curry, onion rings and soft shell crab. omg damn awesome (y) especially the salmon and onion rings! :D <3 i'm hungry now LOL. so that was pretty much how i spent boxing day ;)

Monday, 27/12
i was supposed to go out with hazel to watch rapunzel but it was canceled :( sorry!!! went out shopping with my parents instead. first stop was prologue@ion, where i got chipboard alphabet stickers and paper whimsies for my scrapbook!!! :) ♥ awesome. i'm so continuing with it later ;) next stop was j8, went to popular and bought my pretty pretty blackboard!!! :D i'm still thinking whether i should chuck out my old whiteboard. it's like 7 years old i think? hahah, shall decide about that soon. ;)

Tuesday, 28/12
had cca this morning from 9-12. i still need to brush up on my 2nd song. i've practised hard but this ain't enough, i gotta go even further. hope i can get my personal harp stringed soon (it snapped when i didn't even touch it, just my luck!). stayed back for awhile to do up the harp board with madeline, lee dea and charmaine. and taaa-daah! we succeeded! it looks awesome now, thanks to maddy's wonderful painting skills :) haha! harp is ♥ :)

and oh, did i mention i sooooo love Sassafras Lass? :)

Life's just so unfair.

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20/12
Gillian: No prob bunz, i'll always be here for you :)

21/12
Sabrina: Hello! :)

23/12
Abigail: Hi Abby! Thanks! :)

i'm going to blog my heart out today.
so many things ran through my mind.

i don't know about any of you guys, but have you all ever felt so inferior? like the worst among your friends, your schoolmates etc. i bet you all must have. but this time i don't know why, this feeling hit me real hard. it hit so hard that i almost wanted to cry. sometimes i feel that i'm always the one who fails at everything. i'm not good at anything, i just feel that i have so many flaws that i can directly point out by just looking at me and things i do. sometimes i feel that i'm stupid, like really stupid. when i'm being compared to, or more of just the fact that i'm mentally doing so, it kind of hits me that i'm not a very smart kid. i don't get very good grades, and i hate it when i'm being compared to with others. at times i really hate the fact that i wasn't born as smart as some people. i feel so left out and helpless. and no matter how hard i try, i just cannot get the grade, while the smart ones can easily ace tests without even studying for them. i think life is really unfair. i really feel that i'm a good-for-nothing. i'm not pretty, i'm not talented, i'm not smart. yeah you all may say, oh, you learn music, but so what? i'm just the average kid-next-door who happens to learn piano. fine, and sometimes people think i'm a nerd just because i look like one and i act like one. don't people get it that i'm studying so hard because i don't want to look like a failure in front of everyone? i don't want to get laughed at, or especially being compared to. what. like i even have a plus point of myself that i can talk about. i really feel small next to some of you. fine, i may not get the same grades like you, but at least i try. and no one even seems to care a thing.

i feel even smaller standing next to you, knowing how much respect you command. i feel like i'm this loser who's being hated and criticised on every minute of people's lives, like as though this society doesn't have a place for me, this nerd. fine, i'm a nerd. whatever you want. you're smart. full stop. all i can say is that life is unfair, really unfair, because some people are born with everything, the brains, the beauty, the talents etc. while some others are just.... forget it. all i know is i feel stupid standing next to you.

the next thing i wanna talk about is, have any of you ever felt like your efforts you put in have gone to waste? i'm not trying to blame or pinpoint anybody here, because it happens all the time. you put your heart and soul into something, but then it turns out like it was nothing? like everything you visioned in your mind crumbles down to rocks, and you cannot do anything about it? i don't get it, what is this? just because of a few people everything turns out in a mess. never mind i'm going to move on from this topic.

and today got me thinking. so many things ran through my mind. this question that got me thinking was, 'what is a leader?' i asked myself this question many times, and also asked myself many rhetorical questions. shouldn't a leader be someone who takes initiative? shouldn't a leader be a good role model? shouldn't a leader be someone who respects everyone including themselves? shouldn't a leader be someone who has enthusiasm to serve? shouldn't a leader be committed to whatever he/she's doing? i don't know, but of course nobody is perfect. at times we make mistakes, and definitely cannot fulfill all those at one time. i'm not perfect either. but we should at least have the basics rooted down within us right? the basics are what ignite the sparks in us to lead & serve. so i don't understand, if the basics aren't even there, how can he/she qualify as a leader? sometimes i make too many mistakes myself, but i'm trying to learn. which explains the picture of my blog post today. change never ends, and i hope to become a better person each day, just like how everyone else will learn from their own experiences too.

thanks blog, for always being here when i need to do some serious ranting.
and my readers for tolerating my post when i get too frustrated at times.

Just the way you are.

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18/12
Phoebe: Hello potato! Love you too :)

hey dah peeps! i'm back from..... cruise! it was quite fun, but one thing i regretted was not trying out the water slide. it looks super fun ok! the stupid slide closed at 6pm (which i didn't know), and we went there at about 6.15pm -_- annoying! :@ so, just like that i missed the chance to ride on that super fun... thing. LOL. so anyway, just being random about the stuff i'm actually doing right now... the progress of my scrapbook is, a bit faster than a snail ;) i'm reading up a bit about nutrition too, it's kinda like at my own pace, just that i guess i won't have enough time to finish up what i borrowed. my homework's got a little progress, now i'm only left with chapter 4 and 5's mindmaps for crickcrackmonkey and the history report. i'd better do my history up on tuesday, the mindmaps can wait... for a study date :) i hope there'd be one. -wink- recently i found very nice songs, like 'heartbeat' and 'chemistry', though they're not exactly the newest songs around :) i might add a blog playlist soon? or maybe change my blogskin. hehe, shall see what time permits me to do! bye! :)

So baby keep my heart beating.

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15/12
Gillian: Hi bunz <3 Yeah it's awesome! My toe skin all came off hahahah.

16/12
Jialin: Hello! :) <33333

Meita: Hi! Thanks! :)

hi everyone! i'm going on a cruise again later haha! it's a weekend one. and hopefully it won't be as crowded as before :) ooh and lisa just uploaded this super sexy photo of homin endorsing for marie claire! super sexy i tell ya ;) and ya know what, my tongue just turned numb, like at the tip. :o i was eating ice to soothe my dry lips but then it got stuck to my tongue, and i tried to pull it off, and now it's numb. it even had a small cut and bled a little!!!! :( scary. but after i ate a magnum mini it's okay now haha. anyway i feel like i've neglected my blog (for twitter), but i'll try to post as much as i can before school reopens, it's less than 2 weeks. and i still have 2 more lit mindmaps and history to go. i'm so dead. ah well. anyway i got so bored that i'm did this. haha! i did one for my in-time-to-come blog url ;) which i guess won't be that soon :D



bye!

Now I'm feeling so fly like a G6.

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10/12
Yeewah: Hi to you and Monkey! :)

Narcissa: HAI NANA <3 [;

#nowplaying - painting flowers by all time low
teehee, i love that song, sorta my favourite from atl. :) talking about songs, i haven't really been catching up with mtv, actually, it's more of because i find that songs these days are terrible. they're about nothing but indecent stuff, which i shall not mention here. :/ anyway my life's been kinda boring, as usual, haven't really got a lot of homework done, but it's okay cos' there's gonna be another study date tmr with yeewah & radiant! :) cca's stopped temporarily for now, and will resume on the 28th... i need to take this time to practise.

sentosa yesterday with bunz, stacy, sheryl and madeline! super fun :) i got like buried in sand by them hahahaha :) which made me feel super dirty. had hotdogs for lunch and then we went to play in the water!!! ^^ and i got dragged by stacy and sheryl far far away lah! but at least there was a float :) i felt so super helpless ok hahah. me and madeline planned to stay on shore but those two dragged us in >:( bunz was with them but at least she tried to help me hahaha! bunz pwn. :D we played monkey with stacy's float, but for a short while only :( stacy and sheryl stayed in the water for like what 3 hours! me, bunz and madeline already got up to change after 1-2 hours or so hahah! the toilet was super far!!! i guess we changed for like 1 hour lmao. we were waiting and waiting for those two to get out of the water and change, we got so bored that we went to buy ice cream and popcorn to eat teehee >:) then the leftovers of popcorn give stacy and sheryl rofl. after eating like a pig, we decided not to wait for those two crazy nutcases who wanted to get tanned and so we left sentosa first. :) it was quite confusing as we didn't really know the way... :/ oh well, at least we got home safely. :) let's go out again guys! <3


i super agree with this tweet! i dream about stuff every night, and it's disappointing to wake up finding it was just.... a dream. like how i dreamt about someone giving me a pink polaroid camera for my birthday, like how i dreamt about dbsk coming to singapore but apparently no one was there so i took a picture with them, like how i dreamt about lollipop coming to singapore and having a heart-to-heart talk with them, like how i dreamt of psle year all over again and me getting 260+, like how.... oh.

ah well. sucks to be me, huh?

Always Keep The Faith.

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07/12
Yeewah: You have a blog! Yay! :) I'll link you!

Madeline: Hehe I hope it'll be fun too! :) <3 I've yet to ask my parents though hahaha.

hi readers. i've been busy this week again. :( monday... let's see aye, i think i was omg i forgot -_- STUPID ME. okay nvm, moving on, tuesday i had cca. and it was so stressful. ms wong picked on the harp1s again :( i really need to practise harder, i think i suck. but i think the syf and the blisters are gonna kill me T_T but it's okay, i am going to try!!! after cca we stayed back for quite a while to do up the harp board. i was kinda angry cos' of my cramps :@ super pain okay! and also when i realised almost all the harpists except for whaleshark and teddybear turned their back on us about the following day's playtime @ owl's. >:( all pangseh us lor. sian :'( but who cares, the four of us had loads of fun baking and playing heehee! :) sorry owl for messing up your kitchen! :P the cheesecake turned out okay, surprisingly! ^^ we harpists are awesome at baking! hehe! then today, had piano in the morning, then went out to school to buy books, then headed to j8 for study date! had lunch at the library cafe and then we found a table at the 4th floor! awesome :) today was quite productive considering the fact that i finished 80% of the chinese paper. i did the 40 mark question okay! i was so focused hahaha. i'm so gonna chiong my b compre tmr. :(

anyway, i heard about the news on twitter that snsd won some disk daesang thing at some award ceremony. the sones are all happy and jumping, but apparently the elfs were kinda upset and even felt guilty about suju not getting the award.. but after seeing @TVXQfacts' tweets, i felt kinda sorry for the elfs, but then again felt even more sad when i thought of dbsk. what is dbsk now? jyj and homin. it's not how it's supposed to be. dbsk is five, it is jaejoong, yunho, changmin, yoochun and junsu, together. at least suju is performing on stage, but what about dbsk? :'( -sob- but the bond between CassieElfs kinda inspires me... haha, anyway congrats to snsd for winning disk daesang!





(look at changmin, so cute here ♥ :P)





always keep the faith. ♥

note: i am not an elf, and neither am i a sone or whatever you call the fans of snsd :)

xoxo.

Put your hands up.

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04/12
Jialin: Hello ♥ Nope it's sogurt @ Nex! Super awesome! :)

hello. haven't blogged in quite awhile. don't really have much to talk about. hmm let's see, my scrapbook's progress is like snaily. i've only completed like five pages, but i must say it's a job well done! ;) i put in alot of effort in doing this, so it had better turn out good :D but the thing is i still have 30+ photos to go :( oh well. and i need to finish up my homework pretty soon, it's been left rotting since november. i need to chiong lit once i get the book, but i heard it's super cheem. :( okay whatever, anyway i would die for one of these wobbuffet shirts! :)))



SUPER CUTE RIGHT! I KNOW. just look at my twitter page & you'll see the wobbuffet craziness of me teehee. nom-ing on oranges now. and i got a dbsk poster!!! ♥ heehee yay. i put it up with my boys like girls one too <3 gonna check out youtube now, cos' i have nothing to blog about, and imma watch kevjumba, check out new music vids, or maybe even watch smurfs/family guy haha :) k that's about it, cya! can't wait for wednesday! ♥

It all comes down to love.

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29/11
Gillian: Haha really? Cool! :) How's it going?

hello! i just changed my skin :) it's not really one of the newest skins around but yeah, i think it's quite nice! i just re-edited quite alot of stuff, because originally, it was a geeky skin haha! i might change the picture on top left column as it would get boring after awhile. so yeah. anyway, i went to nex with rad&haz and it was super crowded -_- walked around popular and i managed to buy a scrapbook! YES. and that low-fat, no i should say, non-fat yogurt is damn good! it's one of a kind, and it's totally awesome. you DIY your own yogurt! it's really self-service, the toppings are really nice, especially the waffle crumbs! :) after walking around much, we went to food junction to stop by for yongtauhu. i love it superduper alot yo. :) then had fries at macs too haha. went home after much window-shopping and caught the amazing race! nick was totally a _______ there okay. seriously. vicki was trying so hard and all he did was grumble, complain and left her to do everything. what a guy gay. so because his guyness gayness, they have a six-hour penalty the next leg, which is totally stupid.

and btw kevjumba's new video is out!



enjoy! ;)