follow your heart, it's never wrong.

hello pretty skinny beautiful amazing people
it's been donkey years ago since i blogged.
bloody prelims were so damn demoralising i swear.
this whole week felt like hell.
2 papers everyday, 8 papers at a shot this whole week.
i nearly died in that avalanche of papers.
thank god i was fit enough to last through this whole shit, staying up late to study till 1am...
so tgif.
IT'S FRIDAY, FINALLY.
this week of hell is finally over and i can catch up on my sleep, but at the same time recharge my batteries to study for the tests next week.
anyway, i think i'm not even gonna get any As this prelims, not to mention even any Bs.
if i can even pass all my subjects i'd be content already.

ss was so screwed i can't even.

history was HECK omg southeast asian history is the worst crap ever.... even the modern world paper was hard.

e math wasn't even hard, but i had many undone questions and lost 25 marks today already sigh sigh sigh let's just hope i pass.

a math omg. kill me nowwwww it was.... sigh ok gotta work harder for next week's paper 2.

lit was fine. FINE. and plus i didn't even study for it. wth logic please!

chem was literally crap i just guessed my way through the entire paper. confirm plus chop f9 HAHAHAHA paper 1 can't even save me anymore.

my only hope left is bio....

which i hope doesn't screw me upside down inside out like ALL the other papers did.

if o's is THIS hard i am dead meat.

well well can't wait for prelims to be over so i can STUDY.

i am really going to work hard.

i don't want to have any regrets like i did that time during PSLE.

but what am i? i'm stupid, so even if i put in a 101% into studying there's only so much i can achieve.

i just don't want to disappoint anyone, myself, my parents and all they've done for me.

i really wanna do well to make them proud.

there's so many people whom i wanna prove wrong too, those who keep telling me can't i am going to show you i can.

i honestly hate it when i put in so much effort but the result comes out as shit.

sometimes i wished i was smart, but it's okay, i'll work doubly hard to make up for this shit brain of mine.

prelims was definitely another big major wake-up call.

4 more months.

i want to do this.

i need to do this.

i can do this.

new phone wallpaper.

the previous one "the pressure is good for you" worked no charm.

even my mom thought i got "too pressured" during the prelim period and thought i needa loosen up lol.

credits to tumblr for these motivational typographies :)

i honestly miss you so much. why did things have to change? was it me? was it you? or was it us? i hope this will all heal soon. x

carry me home tonight.

(SOON TO BE) STORY OF MY LIFE FOR THE NEXT 4 MONTHS

well well well.

today's the 13th of june.

yeah my life is so darn boring.

anyway my twitter's been pretty dead recently 'cos i don't feel that there's much to tweet about these days...

and i like how my phone is also inactive, i hardly receive texts/calls/vibers/whatsapp notifs.

i really need to get into the mood of studying...

thank you dear phone for being so cooperative :)

prelims are 13 days away.

revving up my engine!!!

what i did today

one english compre + summary

one set of bio mcqs + essay question on enzymes (tuition work)

organic chem notes

not the most productive day but it's improved since yesterday.

but i will work hard, i really will.

i want my <9 points for o's.

p.s.: this blog has become a midnight solace and daily reflection journal haha. don't mind me.

it's 1.05am, and i should be asleep now.

i've got tuition at 9am tmrw, hitting the sack after this sentence.

goodnight :*

noteworthy crap of the day

1. finally changed my screen protector to a glossy one. lookin' good, babe!
2. took five hours worth of naps (not all at once!)
3. i set my heart to study. for real.

well these are just some of the better crap of today.
just came back this morning from a night spent at radiant's :)
love home-cooking dinner hehehe.
so much fun, and so insightful.

what i learnt:
how to peel garlic sprouts
not to add OIL into a beaten egg
corn starch is for thickening sauces
pork ribs = base of the soup, boil the longer the better!
chopping corn requires a butcher knife
how to remove the prawn poop
how to chop garlic in real life using the cooking mama method
chicken fat tastes sooooooo good no it really does

haha though i was nearly exploding from dinner, there was this sense of satisfaction...
i can cook.
enjoyed the durians, cover attempts and funny videos too!
great day great day.

today wasn't very productive though.
all i did was revise one chapter of bio, do one chapter of bio questions and one math exercise on quadratic equations.
i should really stop sleeping so much and get my ass down to work.
4 more months to o's.
do or die.

did i mention that social media's the most warped invention of all time?
it's the root of ALL problems.
smh.

typographies.

hello fellow readers :)
i am pretty pleased with the new blogger layout (just in case i haven't blogged about this), it's the coolest thing on the planet.
the post publisher is really user-friendly now, and you can even find out who reads your blog!!!
like how i found out i had a reader from france today~ bonjour! :)
love the cool statistics they provide  - shows the rapid advancement of technology today.
thanks blogger!!!

well, i haven't had a proper post in... months.
so... to start off, school is pretty much shit these days.
i mean i love going to school and all but learning has become such a farce.
it's so mundane and boring now.
like honestly why would i care about some stupid carbon atoms and their bonds........
haha sorry chemistry was the only thing i did today and i guess i hate it a lot.
my worst subject.

today was day 1 of intensives.
pretty slack though, thank god i wasn't late though i stayed at mbs the night before.
6 more days to go. #presson

had mah chinese o's on monday and i must say it wasn't the easiest crap around.
the compo topics were super unexpected and i did the riskiest one sigh.
paper 2 was not THAT bad, but i'm not that confident either.
let's just hope my A doesn't fly away..... :(

so yeah, since life hasn't been very much good to me, or even the least bit enticing, i tried to find myself some solaces that would keep me going...
and that's tumblr.
my recent obsession with typographies are pretty odd, but they're at least motivating.
and some of them are actually funny.
so why not give it a chance, instead of just listening to music & snoozing the day away?

enjoy.
credits to tumblr.

love you all out there.
aw dang my plpb post got overwritten :'(

xoxo

driving me crazy.

"I miss us. And I don't mean like us being together, I mean like I miss us being so close and telling each other everything."


"I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel, like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. But those words may forever stay in my heart - locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know."

(taking my Chinese O's in less than a day's time, turn my fears into faith please!)

when the night falls.

hi guys.
it's been exactly a month since i've blogged.
what exactly has happened....

22 March - Sheryl's Birthday Celebration











happy birthday gay & sexy sheryl! we all love you :)

23 March - Sports Day & THE HUNGER GAMES!





















sports day was okay, thank god our effort of all that planning paid off!
THG WAS AWESOME OMG.



PEETA MY BREADBOY OMGGGGG :*

24 March - Guzheng Concert





































guzheng concert was great!
glad to have been able to support them :)
hope harrogate was good x

7 April - St. Andrews' Carnival

















thanks for the awesome time guys :) pity i didn't get to sit on the meteorite hahaha.

12 & 13 April - Harp Performance @ Esplanade



probably my one and only glam photo of the two days hahaha.
love bonding time with the harpists! <3
dinner was good too :)



that's about all.
and happy belated birthday, radiant! <3 love you xoxoxoxoxoxo

finished my e-learning already...
going out to study later.
bio tuition tonight.
cya!