8 things i want to do after o's

omg yessssssss *spazzing*
o levels are ALMOST over!!!!!!!!
i am this close to freedom.
JUST THIS CLOSE.
left with sea history, chem, and bio mcq omg :D
i've never felt this good before.
once o's are officially over i bet i will just lose my mind.
so anyway, here are the things that i'll be up to this holiday:

1) Scrapbooking + Card-Making

this has always been my all-time favourite hobby. i'm not actually very good at it, neither am i professional in doing cards because i take at least 4 hours to finish a card. idk, don't you feel delighted when you receive a card that someone has put in much effort in doing? :) i'd feel very touched to receive a pretty card that someone has put much effort into doing :) HINT HINT BELATED BIRTHDAY CARDS GUYS. AHAHA KIDDING. yup the reason why i really enjoy doing scrapbooking because it's such a meaningful hobby. i like to see the joy on people's faces when they receive my cards. it's really the simple joys in life that matter the most. maybe i'll continue with my scrapbook that i left off to rot since... 1-2 years ago ugh. :P

2) Reading (as a hobby)

the reason why i want to pick up reading as a hobby is because i am absolutely stunned by how slow and uncreative my brain is. i feel so brain dead everytime i read a story/passage/text/novel and fail to understand it. all started from o level english compre. i completely misinterpreted the passage as i made no sense of what was going on. it came about as a great shock to me, how my intent dislike to read had such adverse consequences. i don't know why, i just hate reading. i am just lazy and don't want to use my brain to pore over the stories that could mean a million things. don't ask me how i fail to understand simple stories - this must have all arose from my lack of reading widely and deprivation of good books. that's why during this break, i gotta keep my brain active and alive by reading. yes, i hope that this is a lifelong skill/hobby that i'll indulge in. let's try to cultivate my love for books this holiday.

i'll probably start off with the perks of being a wallflower by stephen chbosky, since i just watched the movie today and found it particularly relevant to our teenage lives. i have a few books at home that i bought which i did not touch completely, though i read some half-heartedly for the sake of reading during our silent reading periods. i found a book in the house titled the sunflower forest by torey hayden. it seems appealing, since it dates back all the way to the war in history. oh oh oh, and i gotta finish up my hunger games trilogy too hehe! haven't found the time to finish catching fire and start on mockingbird ah :( quite excited!

 3) Watch TV shows

yes i am definitely not the #1 fan of television programmes/movies/drama serials as you all know. but really, what harm can a few programmes do? enhance your general knowledge, teach you language and conversational skills... i don't see a bad thing about that. what i see that is currently bad, is me, again, failing to understand american movies and shows. i feel like a complete idiot, which is true, because when i watch shows, i rely heavily on english subtitles to help me understand what on earth is going on. this is bad. i need to do away without these subs soon. anyway, on another note, i've got a few programmes i wanna catch during this long break. the big bang theory, friends, glee (maybe!), diary of a wimpy kid movies, family guy, undercover boss and so on. that's all i can think of for now. but yeah, i definitely need to widen my horizons. i don't know 90% of the people in the showbiz and entertainment industry, and that is rather.... ummm. yup.

4) Baking

imagine the delightful smells of the cookies freshly baked from the oven. imagine the bright colours of the batter of rainbow cupcakes. imagine the soft fluffy cake inside the muffins you make. mmmm doesn't that sound delectable? oh yes so i've decided to bake (for fun). i'm so stoked to bake rainbow cupcakes, panda cupcakes, chocolate chip cookies, butterscotch and brownies. :) though i'm an ultimate noob at baking, i really really really can't wait. and yes jieling my baking buddy!!! let's bake for christmas ok! i'm so excited srsly ;-)

5) Revamp my wardrobe

indeed my fashion sense is horrible. i am in desperate need of hiring a fashion stylist so i can improve myself. i need to rid all my old clothes (that are too small) and hunt for new ones. i need more semi-formal clothing, not too exaggerated for simple outings, not too informal like the school-based shirts i always wear to tuition. oh fishsticks i feel like a fashion failure (alliteration). ha ha ha not funny. ummm so yes this is a crisis and that i gotta get down to packing my clothes and reorganising them. i. just. need. new. clothes. so. badly. ahhh.

6) Redesign my personal cork board

 

THIS IS A MUST-DO I SWEAR. actually i'm kind of conflicted about what i should do with my personal cork board. for these 4 years of my secondary school life, i've used it as a formula reference (which kinda died off after sec 3 because i was too lazy to write down my formulas on post-its and my ocd for writing neatly, almost perfectly irked me half the time too) but now i'm unsure what i SHOULD change it into. the best idea i have in mind right now is to use it and recreate a collage of my secondary school memories, something like this (http://www.scrapbook.com/gallery/image/scraproom/1931643.html). again it's going to be a heavy investment on scrapbook stuff, but i'll make do with my leftovers first, i promise :) but i'm afraid i might regret it later when i move on to jc/poly and need the cork board again for formula reference... let's hope i won't regret my decision to reconstruct this into a memory collage just like what i did for my FIS 2011 collage. i'm most hyped about this. ^^ CAN'T WAIT TO GET STARTED ALREADY!

7) Learn how to use a DSLR

i think dslrs are amazing. the focus and quality of the photos are great. my dad's got one but he lent it out and i don't want it to actually go to waste. i really want to learn how to use the dslr. i need to learn. it's like a lifeskill hahaha ok no, i think things would be simple enough if i just play around with the functions on my own. like an experiment. i'll make sure i'll know everything about the dslr soon hehe :)

8) Pop songs on piano

i've got millions of pop songs lined up for me to learn during this break, but my first song to learn, and master, will be boys like girls' be your everything. i love that song so so so much, no words can express my love for it. it's amazing, how martin's voice can complement the acoustics and piano so well :) blg's amazing. i'll probably learn other hot chelle rae songs too, like whatever and honestly, my two favourites. i like forever unstoppable by hcr too but i think it won't suit the piano. guess i gotta delve for pop scores online again sometime soon! :)

x

yup so there are the eight things i want to do after o's.

what about you?

i'm sure everyone's tempted to try something different or just, play to the fullest during this break.

before the results come back i must play to my fullest (potential you can say) HAHAHA.

oh my goodness i sound like as though o levels are officially over.

what gibberish.

heh.

anyway i'd taken a one-day break today after lit to catch perks in the cinemas and blog now.

i will study hard for history on wednesday and the mcqs that are yet to come :-)

till we meet again, sometime VERY soon!!!! :)

and this will be me tonight and everyday from now on ;)

xoxo

august is over / wake me up when september ends

hi readers :)
sorry i said in the previous post that you hope i won't be back till o's are over.
so i broke my promise, but i hope this will really be the last time you'll see me here before o's.
because i am just in great delight that prelim 2 is over.

so prelims ended yesterday, but i'm not sure whether i fared well.
it has been an arduous two weeks, and as usual i'm not feeling confident for any subjects.
even my strongest hope for bio seems to have already faded away...
sigh.
ONE MORE FREAKING MONTH LEFT.

headed out yesterday after chemistry paper 1 to hunt for my ideal handover present.
i already had something in mind that was so perfect, but sadly all major retailers of such toys disappointed me greatly.
SUCKS.
had to make do with something cheaper yet still preserve the value and meaning behind my original idea.
oh well.
spreeing at paper market for harp farewell stuff kinda made my day too! :)
had to travel back to school for a rehearsal for the teachers' day performance.
was kinda annoyed by the eleventh-hour notice but ah well, it's a meet-up with a prefects whom i haven't spent quality time with in a long time anyway :)
so yeah we were tryna learn the song but i was super annoyed 'cos of my slowness in learning the song and also 'cos of another reason -_-
hahahaha at least i had my retarded prefects to seek comfort in.
laughed, talked and fooled around like kids during the free time as usual.
i really cherish these memories so much.

today (31 aug) was the actual performance and miraculously i managed to catch the song, tune and lyrics!!!
amazing.
and aces day was rather fun! :)
although half my clique + other 4A3 peeps ponned i'm really proud of myself for doing 1050 skips! :)
thanks tianwei and erinna for encouraging me :)
AND ALSO BE YOUR EVERYTHING.
MY MAIN ENCOURAGER WHEN I HEARD THE SONG PLAY IN THE ASSEMBLY GROUNDS I WAS TOO EXCITED HAHAHAHA
changed and rehearsed for the last time, and waited backstage for our turn :)
popped by the hall when we saw the teachers' skit 'cos it was really hilarious :P
played and laughed the whole time with the same old prefects!!!
SO FUN~
gay scissor-paper-stone AHAHAHAHA
though i was still pretty reclusive and awkward about performing, i still had fun and i know i did my best :)
thank you teachers, we really appreciate everything you've done and please do come for prom hehehehehe!!!

honestly there's something about pb that really makes me unusually happy, always.
it's not the mad-type of happy, but the warm-kind of happy.
like that feeling when you know someone will always have your back despite anything that happens.
there's the prefects that i know i can always count on even if we fall.
because there's just this really strong bond that we share that's beyond description.
i don't know how to explain it, but it's just really, really genuine.
you never have to worry about yourself and how you carry yourself towards others because there's just this realness about those prefects i'm close to.
you never have to worry about being judged, and that's what i like so much about spending time with them.
we're real with each other, and honest.
there's no lies or pretense at all, only genuine affection for one another, something like a family.
always there for each other, and being nothing but yourself.
talking about anything under the sun, laughing at our silly selves.
that's true joy.



have a listen at boys like girls' be your everything.
it's sooooo sweet and amazing i can't even.
CRAZY WORLD EP'S OUT BUT I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE ACTUAL ALBUM ITSELF!!!! :)
it's been 3 years since love drunk!
wow.
#cantwaitforcrazyworld <3 p="p">

life as we know it.

here's a couple of belated birthday posts and other random updates about life then maybe from now on.... it's an official hiatus till november :'(

happy birthday to this super geeky girl a.k.a retarded/gay/bimbo doob ♥

yup happy belated birthday seowhwee!!!!!!

hope you had a great day my dear buddy :)

love you x

happy birthday gillllllllllllllllllllian ♥

hello gillywillymilly.

happy belated birthday!!! :)

have fun with your new pals yeah, love you x

back to the present.

this week anyway hasn't been really pleasant anyway.

and the olympics have been rather distractingggg :P

especially with hot dudes like david boudia :*

JUST LOOK AT HIS DIMPLES K

TOO HOT TOO HOTTTT :P

and i've got renewed respect for our table tennis player, feng tian wei.

she fought so hard for singapore and our bronze medal.

thank you ftw, we singaporeans are so proud of your effort :)))

gah.

no negative posts okay noooo.

yup so i shall head to bed soon?

hope you don't see me again till november :P

i'm going to do this.

yes.

there is going to be plenty of people out there telling me all sorts of shit, and even i sometimes tell myself:

"you're stupid"

"why are you so dumb"

"can't you just be a little smarter? maybe the world would be better"

"work harder"

"crap results"

"is that the best you can achieve?"

"i'm so much better than you"

"you suck"

etc. etc.

but these people are only gonna have the laugh for now.

i must work real hard and show that i'm not this dumbass weakling.

i will prove those idiots wrong and do well for my o's.

it's gonna take hard work but, i know i can do this.

i know i can.

today's the 22nd of july.

exactly 3 more months.

i don't exactly have all the time in the world but i will seize every moment to study.

Happy birthday Stacy! ♥

yes the photo is a bit dark but i like it.

my swollen eye on friday was so awfully shit.
stupid duck meat allergy zzz and the hives were so itchy thank god they're gone now.

anw to this fat pig above, happy belated birthday! :) you're 16... so you should aim to have a waist size of 16 inches hahahahaha ok i am just kidding ;)

love you & your fats!!! <3

let's go eat chippy's and shop around at paper market again k~

#memories

asdfghjkl gonna die during tuition tomorrow because i am too stupid mmhmm :>

I WILL WORK HARDER.

now that's the Mudmoose Motto.

yeah.

k sorry i guess studying fried my brains so yah whatever, goodnight all you little kiddys out there.

just another july.

well well.
guess it's july again huh.
7th month of the year, meaning 6 months (half of 2012) is gone.
so the start of july is a pretty significant one for me, and i guess there's no better way to start off the month with..... prelims, right!?!?!
HAHAHA no please, no.
well anyway here's to the start of july, the month of intensity, the month where stress levels' gonna rise, the month where it's REALLY time to get serious.
anyway i can finally look forward to something i've always loved doing - card-making for my dearest friends.
i've got 3 to do this month, stacy, seowhwee and gillian.
can finally look forward to something this month :)
at the same time i'm not gonna let any opportunity to study slip away (pretty ironic how i'm saying all this when i'm blogging rather frequently huh)
anyway.
i couldn't resist this cutie pie liam and thus he is my wallpaper now hahahahaha <3

TOO CUTE.

haha honestly sometimes i feel i don't have a life.

so let me blog about some significant events of my life that have happened..... since..... well... i left off at the SA Carnival a few posts ago..... okay, april.

outdated crap i know, but... :D

20/4 Sports Day Committee Dinner

(probably one the gay-est pics we took there WAHAHAHA)

i kinda forgot that we actually had a sports day comm dinner.
haha honestly i kinda miss planning for sports day.
early morning meetings at 7am @ the ne corner, rushing out admin proposals with seowhwee, staying back after school to organise ALL the spreadsheets...
well it was hard work but at least it paid off on the actual day itself :)
and our celebratory dinner (that we paid on our own) at clarke quay was pretty much to like PARTY and WOOHOO!
but i was soooo sick that day.... ran a fever so i barely had appetite.
and walking around clarke quay at night made my fever worse.
so i skipped open house the next day.
not the most significant event of my life but still, i miss sports day.
final year in PL, and this is definitely gonna go into my memory bank!!! :) 

27/4 Harp Performance @ SGH (last performance)

well.

all good things always must come to an end, as they always say.

and yes, they did for me, on 27 april.

i miss the harp ensemble so much already, i miss tuesday practices (though i often got headaches from 'em), self-practices, laughing with the harpists, singing ndp songs like home on bus rides to and fro concert venues...

all this has become a thing of the past.

why did we have to step down so quickly?!

we barely took on our roles and started to actually "get used to it", and now we're already retired.

i really miss harp so much.

anyway our last performance - i screwed it up again.

a mistake of mine caused a junior to be unable to perform.

sometimes you know i really wonder if i am deserving of my role as the vp.

sometimes i really just... doubt my abilities.

if you could rewind time i will definitely do what i have, differently.

am i not serious enough?

am i not passionate enough?

am i not a good-enough example?

i don't know, i always screw up, always.

though i know i haven't been the best vp the ensemble could have asked for, but deep down i really know that i have tried my best, and i really have done all i can for pl cherubs.

i'm sorry to some if they felt i didn't live up to my title, but what matters is that i have tried, and it was my best.

can't wait for farewell, though i know that will truly be the LAST bonding time with the harpists.

i have so much to tell my future vp i think i'm going to spam her a letter a zillion pages long.

and i already have a fantastic and meaningful present in mind, that i am going to give her, and that's gonna represent all that i'm going to say to her :)

going to miss all of you guys so much <3

this was our swan song, 27/4/12.

and exactly ONE year ago, 27/4/11, it was our SYF, the most significant performance of our ensemble and the performance that we've practised the hardest for.

the above photo brings back so much memories.

not only am i going to miss practising and performing with my level, i am also gonna miss tying french plaits hahahaha i just started to grow my hair out and now i have no more opportunities to tie a french plait for any of our performances anymore :'(

okay that's not my point.

what i really wanted to say is that i'm really proud of our level.

REALLY proud.

have so much to say to each sec 4, and how much hard work they've put in for the ensemble.

we've grown so much, look at us in sec 2. (i am like the ultimate noob there)

so much memories hahaha :')

from our first strings concert, to la'salle, to syf, to other random concerts..... i will always remember you guys :*

PL HARP ENSEMBLE FTW <3

28/4 Musical Montage

was a pretty good concert, and it made me think about our last performance the day before...

sigh.

anyway i had a great time with my dear friends!!!

loved supporting the rest of the people i know <3

great job guys!!! :-)

16/5 Prefects' Installation

love you guys so so so so so much.

pb is really a family that god didn't give me :') <3

my buddies, my perm comm (STUDENT WELFARE OH YESSS), my close friends in the board.... going to miss you guys so much.

you guys really make my day, every morning without fail.

monday mornings, though there's chair arrangement, duties with you guys make it so much better.

and on normal days where we have to settle the girls down and all....

i'll never forget the laughter, epic moments and memories forged.

every morning may not be a special day, but with all the accumulated great times, journey with the board has become special, unique and memorable.

still remember the first time i joined the board i was really #likeanoob

well there's just so much that we've been through together... i can't even explain my feelings now.

it's nostalgia and pride mixed with a tinge of sadness.

'cos i know there won't be a second time again.

these memories ain't gonna rewind and be played in the present again.

us one year ago

one day i'm going to dedicate a post to the board :)

never regretted my decision to join pb.

met so many wonderful people that... changed my life.

<3

i know i say the same old stuff everytime but the feeling everytime i get when i write all this never fades 

22/6 For God So Loved (PL Musical)

yes i daresay that this was the BEST aesthetic performance i've actually attended in my 4 years of schooling in PL.

the actors were brilliant, the atmosphere was more than appropriate, the props were so beautiful, their singing was all amazing....

there was really no flaw in the musical.

kudos to all the actors who rehearsed hard this holidays <3 (esp. radiant!)

sacrificing prelims for this might not have been easy, but you did it :)

and musical was so awesome we're all so proud of you!!!

so yeah that's my life for the past.... 3 months.

went to visit the doc's today to get medicine for my stomach/flatulence/appetite issues.

thank god it wasn't anything serious like what i suspected it was to be.

but i gotta rest up and can't join the A3 peeps for badminton tmr sigh sucks.

and i could blog such a long post 'cos i have a four-day weekend :)

#AWESOMESHIT it's sleeping time!!!

time to rest up and relax, and work hard, too!

here's to a great july and all the amazing times before xxx

love you :*

follow your heart, it's never wrong.

hello pretty skinny beautiful amazing people
it's been donkey years ago since i blogged.
bloody prelims were so damn demoralising i swear.
this whole week felt like hell.
2 papers everyday, 8 papers at a shot this whole week.
i nearly died in that avalanche of papers.
thank god i was fit enough to last through this whole shit, staying up late to study till 1am...
so tgif.
IT'S FRIDAY, FINALLY.
this week of hell is finally over and i can catch up on my sleep, but at the same time recharge my batteries to study for the tests next week.
anyway, i think i'm not even gonna get any As this prelims, not to mention even any Bs.
if i can even pass all my subjects i'd be content already.

ss was so screwed i can't even.

history was HECK omg southeast asian history is the worst crap ever.... even the modern world paper was hard.

e math wasn't even hard, but i had many undone questions and lost 25 marks today already sigh sigh sigh let's just hope i pass.

a math omg. kill me nowwwww it was.... sigh ok gotta work harder for next week's paper 2.

lit was fine. FINE. and plus i didn't even study for it. wth logic please!

chem was literally crap i just guessed my way through the entire paper. confirm plus chop f9 HAHAHAHA paper 1 can't even save me anymore.

my only hope left is bio....

which i hope doesn't screw me upside down inside out like ALL the other papers did.

if o's is THIS hard i am dead meat.

well well can't wait for prelims to be over so i can STUDY.

i am really going to work hard.

i don't want to have any regrets like i did that time during PSLE.

but what am i? i'm stupid, so even if i put in a 101% into studying there's only so much i can achieve.

i just don't want to disappoint anyone, myself, my parents and all they've done for me.

i really wanna do well to make them proud.

there's so many people whom i wanna prove wrong too, those who keep telling me can't i am going to show you i can.

i honestly hate it when i put in so much effort but the result comes out as shit.

sometimes i wished i was smart, but it's okay, i'll work doubly hard to make up for this shit brain of mine.

prelims was definitely another big major wake-up call.

4 more months.

i want to do this.

i need to do this.

i can do this.

new phone wallpaper.

the previous one "the pressure is good for you" worked no charm.

even my mom thought i got "too pressured" during the prelim period and thought i needa loosen up lol.

credits to tumblr for these motivational typographies :)

i honestly miss you so much. why did things have to change? was it me? was it you? or was it us? i hope this will all heal soon. x

carry me home tonight.

(SOON TO BE) STORY OF MY LIFE FOR THE NEXT 4 MONTHS

well well well.

today's the 13th of june.

yeah my life is so darn boring.

anyway my twitter's been pretty dead recently 'cos i don't feel that there's much to tweet about these days...

and i like how my phone is also inactive, i hardly receive texts/calls/vibers/whatsapp notifs.

i really need to get into the mood of studying...

thank you dear phone for being so cooperative :)

prelims are 13 days away.

revving up my engine!!!

what i did today

one english compre + summary

one set of bio mcqs + essay question on enzymes (tuition work)

organic chem notes

not the most productive day but it's improved since yesterday.

but i will work hard, i really will.

i want my <9 points for o's.

p.s.: this blog has become a midnight solace and daily reflection journal haha. don't mind me.

it's 1.05am, and i should be asleep now.

i've got tuition at 9am tmrw, hitting the sack after this sentence.

goodnight :*

noteworthy crap of the day

1. finally changed my screen protector to a glossy one. lookin' good, babe!
2. took five hours worth of naps (not all at once!)
3. i set my heart to study. for real.

well these are just some of the better crap of today.
just came back this morning from a night spent at radiant's :)
love home-cooking dinner hehehe.
so much fun, and so insightful.

what i learnt:
how to peel garlic sprouts
not to add OIL into a beaten egg
corn starch is for thickening sauces
pork ribs = base of the soup, boil the longer the better!
chopping corn requires a butcher knife
how to remove the prawn poop
how to chop garlic in real life using the cooking mama method
chicken fat tastes sooooooo good no it really does

haha though i was nearly exploding from dinner, there was this sense of satisfaction...
i can cook.
enjoyed the durians, cover attempts and funny videos too!
great day great day.

today wasn't very productive though.
all i did was revise one chapter of bio, do one chapter of bio questions and one math exercise on quadratic equations.
i should really stop sleeping so much and get my ass down to work.
4 more months to o's.
do or die.

did i mention that social media's the most warped invention of all time?
it's the root of ALL problems.
smh.