just another july.

well well.
guess it's july again huh.
7th month of the year, meaning 6 months (half of 2012) is gone.
so the start of july is a pretty significant one for me, and i guess there's no better way to start off the month with..... prelims, right!?!?!
HAHAHA no please, no.
well anyway here's to the start of july, the month of intensity, the month where stress levels' gonna rise, the month where it's REALLY time to get serious.
anyway i can finally look forward to something i've always loved doing - card-making for my dearest friends.
i've got 3 to do this month, stacy, seowhwee and gillian.
can finally look forward to something this month :)
at the same time i'm not gonna let any opportunity to study slip away (pretty ironic how i'm saying all this when i'm blogging rather frequently huh)
anyway.
i couldn't resist this cutie pie liam and thus he is my wallpaper now hahahahaha <3

TOO CUTE.

haha honestly sometimes i feel i don't have a life.

so let me blog about some significant events of my life that have happened..... since..... well... i left off at the SA Carnival a few posts ago..... okay, april.

outdated crap i know, but... :D

20/4 Sports Day Committee Dinner

(probably one the gay-est pics we took there WAHAHAHA)

i kinda forgot that we actually had a sports day comm dinner.
haha honestly i kinda miss planning for sports day.
early morning meetings at 7am @ the ne corner, rushing out admin proposals with seowhwee, staying back after school to organise ALL the spreadsheets...
well it was hard work but at least it paid off on the actual day itself :)
and our celebratory dinner (that we paid on our own) at clarke quay was pretty much to like PARTY and WOOHOO!
but i was soooo sick that day.... ran a fever so i barely had appetite.
and walking around clarke quay at night made my fever worse.
so i skipped open house the next day.
not the most significant event of my life but still, i miss sports day.
final year in PL, and this is definitely gonna go into my memory bank!!! :) 

27/4 Harp Performance @ SGH (last performance)

well.

all good things always must come to an end, as they always say.

and yes, they did for me, on 27 april.

i miss the harp ensemble so much already, i miss tuesday practices (though i often got headaches from 'em), self-practices, laughing with the harpists, singing ndp songs like home on bus rides to and fro concert venues...

all this has become a thing of the past.

why did we have to step down so quickly?!

we barely took on our roles and started to actually "get used to it", and now we're already retired.

i really miss harp so much.

anyway our last performance - i screwed it up again.

a mistake of mine caused a junior to be unable to perform.

sometimes you know i really wonder if i am deserving of my role as the vp.

sometimes i really just... doubt my abilities.

if you could rewind time i will definitely do what i have, differently.

am i not serious enough?

am i not passionate enough?

am i not a good-enough example?

i don't know, i always screw up, always.

though i know i haven't been the best vp the ensemble could have asked for, but deep down i really know that i have tried my best, and i really have done all i can for pl cherubs.

i'm sorry to some if they felt i didn't live up to my title, but what matters is that i have tried, and it was my best.

can't wait for farewell, though i know that will truly be the LAST bonding time with the harpists.

i have so much to tell my future vp i think i'm going to spam her a letter a zillion pages long.

and i already have a fantastic and meaningful present in mind, that i am going to give her, and that's gonna represent all that i'm going to say to her :)

going to miss all of you guys so much <3

this was our swan song, 27/4/12.

and exactly ONE year ago, 27/4/11, it was our SYF, the most significant performance of our ensemble and the performance that we've practised the hardest for.

the above photo brings back so much memories.

not only am i going to miss practising and performing with my level, i am also gonna miss tying french plaits hahahaha i just started to grow my hair out and now i have no more opportunities to tie a french plait for any of our performances anymore :'(

okay that's not my point.

what i really wanted to say is that i'm really proud of our level.

REALLY proud.

have so much to say to each sec 4, and how much hard work they've put in for the ensemble.

we've grown so much, look at us in sec 2. (i am like the ultimate noob there)

so much memories hahaha :')

from our first strings concert, to la'salle, to syf, to other random concerts..... i will always remember you guys :*

PL HARP ENSEMBLE FTW <3

28/4 Musical Montage

was a pretty good concert, and it made me think about our last performance the day before...

sigh.

anyway i had a great time with my dear friends!!!

loved supporting the rest of the people i know <3

great job guys!!! :-)

16/5 Prefects' Installation

love you guys so so so so so much.

pb is really a family that god didn't give me :') <3

my buddies, my perm comm (STUDENT WELFARE OH YESSS), my close friends in the board.... going to miss you guys so much.

you guys really make my day, every morning without fail.

monday mornings, though there's chair arrangement, duties with you guys make it so much better.

and on normal days where we have to settle the girls down and all....

i'll never forget the laughter, epic moments and memories forged.

every morning may not be a special day, but with all the accumulated great times, journey with the board has become special, unique and memorable.

still remember the first time i joined the board i was really #likeanoob

well there's just so much that we've been through together... i can't even explain my feelings now.

it's nostalgia and pride mixed with a tinge of sadness.

'cos i know there won't be a second time again.

these memories ain't gonna rewind and be played in the present again.

us one year ago

one day i'm going to dedicate a post to the board :)

never regretted my decision to join pb.

met so many wonderful people that... changed my life.

<3

i know i say the same old stuff everytime but the feeling everytime i get when i write all this never fades 

22/6 For God So Loved (PL Musical)

yes i daresay that this was the BEST aesthetic performance i've actually attended in my 4 years of schooling in PL.

the actors were brilliant, the atmosphere was more than appropriate, the props were so beautiful, their singing was all amazing....

there was really no flaw in the musical.

kudos to all the actors who rehearsed hard this holidays <3 (esp. radiant!)

sacrificing prelims for this might not have been easy, but you did it :)

and musical was so awesome we're all so proud of you!!!

so yeah that's my life for the past.... 3 months.

went to visit the doc's today to get medicine for my stomach/flatulence/appetite issues.

thank god it wasn't anything serious like what i suspected it was to be.

but i gotta rest up and can't join the A3 peeps for badminton tmr sigh sucks.

and i could blog such a long post 'cos i have a four-day weekend :)

#AWESOMESHIT it's sleeping time!!!

time to rest up and relax, and work hard, too!

here's to a great july and all the amazing times before xxx

love you :*

follow your heart, it's never wrong.

hello pretty skinny beautiful amazing people
it's been donkey years ago since i blogged.
bloody prelims were so damn demoralising i swear.
this whole week felt like hell.
2 papers everyday, 8 papers at a shot this whole week.
i nearly died in that avalanche of papers.
thank god i was fit enough to last through this whole shit, staying up late to study till 1am...
so tgif.
IT'S FRIDAY, FINALLY.
this week of hell is finally over and i can catch up on my sleep, but at the same time recharge my batteries to study for the tests next week.
anyway, i think i'm not even gonna get any As this prelims, not to mention even any Bs.
if i can even pass all my subjects i'd be content already.

ss was so screwed i can't even.

history was HECK omg southeast asian history is the worst crap ever.... even the modern world paper was hard.

e math wasn't even hard, but i had many undone questions and lost 25 marks today already sigh sigh sigh let's just hope i pass.

a math omg. kill me nowwwww it was.... sigh ok gotta work harder for next week's paper 2.

lit was fine. FINE. and plus i didn't even study for it. wth logic please!

chem was literally crap i just guessed my way through the entire paper. confirm plus chop f9 HAHAHAHA paper 1 can't even save me anymore.

my only hope left is bio....

which i hope doesn't screw me upside down inside out like ALL the other papers did.

if o's is THIS hard i am dead meat.

well well can't wait for prelims to be over so i can STUDY.

i am really going to work hard.

i don't want to have any regrets like i did that time during PSLE.

but what am i? i'm stupid, so even if i put in a 101% into studying there's only so much i can achieve.

i just don't want to disappoint anyone, myself, my parents and all they've done for me.

i really wanna do well to make them proud.

there's so many people whom i wanna prove wrong too, those who keep telling me can't i am going to show you i can.

i honestly hate it when i put in so much effort but the result comes out as shit.

sometimes i wished i was smart, but it's okay, i'll work doubly hard to make up for this shit brain of mine.

prelims was definitely another big major wake-up call.

4 more months.

i want to do this.

i need to do this.

i can do this.

new phone wallpaper.

the previous one "the pressure is good for you" worked no charm.

even my mom thought i got "too pressured" during the prelim period and thought i needa loosen up lol.

credits to tumblr for these motivational typographies :)

i honestly miss you so much. why did things have to change? was it me? was it you? or was it us? i hope this will all heal soon. x

carry me home tonight.

(SOON TO BE) STORY OF MY LIFE FOR THE NEXT 4 MONTHS

well well well.

today's the 13th of june.

yeah my life is so darn boring.

anyway my twitter's been pretty dead recently 'cos i don't feel that there's much to tweet about these days...

and i like how my phone is also inactive, i hardly receive texts/calls/vibers/whatsapp notifs.

i really need to get into the mood of studying...

thank you dear phone for being so cooperative :)

prelims are 13 days away.

revving up my engine!!!

what i did today

one english compre + summary

one set of bio mcqs + essay question on enzymes (tuition work)

organic chem notes

not the most productive day but it's improved since yesterday.

but i will work hard, i really will.

i want my <9 points for o's.

p.s.: this blog has become a midnight solace and daily reflection journal haha. don't mind me.

it's 1.05am, and i should be asleep now.

i've got tuition at 9am tmrw, hitting the sack after this sentence.

goodnight :*

noteworthy crap of the day

1. finally changed my screen protector to a glossy one. lookin' good, babe!
2. took five hours worth of naps (not all at once!)
3. i set my heart to study. for real.

well these are just some of the better crap of today.
just came back this morning from a night spent at radiant's :)
love home-cooking dinner hehehe.
so much fun, and so insightful.

what i learnt:
how to peel garlic sprouts
not to add OIL into a beaten egg
corn starch is for thickening sauces
pork ribs = base of the soup, boil the longer the better!
chopping corn requires a butcher knife
how to remove the prawn poop
how to chop garlic in real life using the cooking mama method
chicken fat tastes sooooooo good no it really does

haha though i was nearly exploding from dinner, there was this sense of satisfaction...
i can cook.
enjoyed the durians, cover attempts and funny videos too!
great day great day.

today wasn't very productive though.
all i did was revise one chapter of bio, do one chapter of bio questions and one math exercise on quadratic equations.
i should really stop sleeping so much and get my ass down to work.
4 more months to o's.
do or die.

did i mention that social media's the most warped invention of all time?
it's the root of ALL problems.
smh.

typographies.

hello fellow readers :)
i am pretty pleased with the new blogger layout (just in case i haven't blogged about this), it's the coolest thing on the planet.
the post publisher is really user-friendly now, and you can even find out who reads your blog!!!
like how i found out i had a reader from france today~ bonjour! :)
love the cool statistics they provide  - shows the rapid advancement of technology today.
thanks blogger!!!

well, i haven't had a proper post in... months.
so... to start off, school is pretty much shit these days.
i mean i love going to school and all but learning has become such a farce.
it's so mundane and boring now.
like honestly why would i care about some stupid carbon atoms and their bonds........
haha sorry chemistry was the only thing i did today and i guess i hate it a lot.
my worst subject.

today was day 1 of intensives.
pretty slack though, thank god i wasn't late though i stayed at mbs the night before.
6 more days to go. #presson

had mah chinese o's on monday and i must say it wasn't the easiest crap around.
the compo topics were super unexpected and i did the riskiest one sigh.
paper 2 was not THAT bad, but i'm not that confident either.
let's just hope my A doesn't fly away..... :(

so yeah, since life hasn't been very much good to me, or even the least bit enticing, i tried to find myself some solaces that would keep me going...
and that's tumblr.
my recent obsession with typographies are pretty odd, but they're at least motivating.
and some of them are actually funny.
so why not give it a chance, instead of just listening to music & snoozing the day away?

enjoy.
credits to tumblr.

love you all out there.
aw dang my plpb post got overwritten :'(

xoxo

driving me crazy.

"I miss us. And I don't mean like us being together, I mean like I miss us being so close and telling each other everything."


"I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel, like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. But those words may forever stay in my heart - locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know."

(taking my Chinese O's in less than a day's time, turn my fears into faith please!)