School's out!!!

IT'S DA HOLIDAYS.





OH YEA.
(love this GIF btw!)
heh :)

anyway, the first week of november was intensives.
i must say it wasn't that bad as i expected, 'cos they were pretty lax about it.
i liked the mass sessions 'cos we could always secretly play monopoly deal hehehe.
did i mention that monopoly deal is so damn addictive.
totally love it hahah.
k...

yesterday went out with abigail, sheryl, jasley, madeline and narcissa to watch footloose & bowl.
caireen, deanna and andrea were s'posed to come but they were sick/overseas...
so we canceled footloose and discussed cca fair stuff at nex library :-)
pretty productive!
lunched @ subway and shared a sub with jasley :)
bowled at kovan superbowl!
waited for half an hour for an empty lane, and while waiting watched jasley and sheryl play the shooting zombie games at the arcade hahahah super gruesome.
bowling was pretty good :-)
went to sheryl's house after bowling and bought sushi from kovan!
om nom nom <3
love love love sashimi too.
oh god.
craving for it now :(
we intended to play wii but ended up sitting there and talking the whole time, and instead we only started playing wii at the last half hour.
LOLLL.
the monkey game thing is freaking epic haha!
i suck at wii bowling.
then tried to teach sheryl jet lag on the piano but hahah my parents came already~
had a good time tho :)

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had pspc dry run + lamda today!
the dry run was quite.... dry.
HAHAHAHA no pun intended.
soz i'm damn lame.
lamda was not too bad i guess :)
the guy was pretty nice to me.
though i screwed a bit of my speech but whatever.
i tried my best :)
lamda's finally over = freedom!
can finally concentrate on my holiday homework, and have a proper rest tomorrow.
went to nex after lamda with janice and ate sushi!!!!! <3 :)
the after-effects yesterday... heheheh.
bought gongcha too!
and just ate japanese peas <3
later still got dinner, and probably gonna have my childhood ice-cream for dessert, PADDLE POP <3
heh ok bye guys i know i'm fat

CHILDHOOD MEMORIES. click here if you feel nostalgic

Joy of my life.

Tag replies:

@Abigail: Hi Abs! Thanks :)

A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place.

---

If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you,
And share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue

If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own,
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone

If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
Are impossible for me

I cannot build a mountain,
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there


i'm taking this post to thank all my dear dear dear friends. thank you so much for making my 15th birthday such a special one <3 i'll never forget all that you guys have done. you guys hand-baked me a cake from scratch, surprised me with face-creaming, bought such an amazayn gift, stood by me the whole time. i am truly grateful for this bunch of friends.



thank you guys, this is the first time in my life someone has ever baked a cake for me :') i love you all so much :*

and to the people who got me presents:
melissa, abigail, sheryl, stacy + madeline - hot pink earpiece!
amanda - 2012 planner!
madeline - muffins!
gillian - card!
seow hwee, seow chien - photo frame (with that retarded photo of me) + post-its!
hazel - sour skittles!
janice - post-its!
casmine - piggybank!
yeewah - moose soft toys!
radiant - card!
anchi - file + post-its + card!
yingxia - stickers!
kiahling - card!

& many others who wished me! thank you so much for making me the happiest girl on earth on my 15th birthday. this might sound like an exaggeration, but no it isn't. i'm truly blessed to have such awesome friends like y'all. i love you all so so so much ♥♥♥











and etc. etc. :)

i really love y'all so much, thank you for all the memories, both good and bad. thank you tolerating my woes and rants, and for always being there for me whenever i needed someone to talk to. thank you for being like a sister to me, someone who i could always count on. we might have quarreled, but it's the minor fights that bring us closer together.

my light when i was dark,
my warmth when i was cold,
my strength when i was weak,

thank you my dear friends. :)


and i'm truly sorry for losing my temper.
you might not have noticed it,
but i know it's such a trivial matter
i'm sorry i love you

I wanna be the gravity in your universe.

Tag replies:

@Madeline: Okay!

hahah, decided to change my way of replying links.
thanks to twitter for the inspiration hahahaha.

by the way, did i mention how much i love tumblr?
a lot a lot a lot :)
it has so many hotttttttt pictures of 1D and other pretty pretty stuff.
tumblr just kinda beats weheartit. ;)
dk why.
hahaha.
anyway, on thursday we had our grooming workshop...
it was a bit boring. ugh :/
but the dance workshop was C to the O to the O to the L!!
the purple shirt guy was however, quite..... uh floppy?
heh :p
after that stayed back for cca to coach the sec 1s.
homed!

friday was founders day!
happy 95th birthday, PL <3
i was on duty at the concert hall, to settle the sec 4s down and stuff.
after we were done with duty, we sat at the shaw hall to view the service.
my eye was itching so badly.
must be because of the air-con and it became super dry...
ugh.
went to the backstage of the agape hall to usher the prizewinners later on, while i was freezing there hahahaha.
it took quite a while because the pastor preached for very long...
during the prize presentation ceremony, at first my job was pretty awkward...
lolz.
then come to yihui to collect prize, she walk towards me, and she kept whispering "aiya retarded la..."
walao i wanted to laugh so hard then HAHAHAHA.
but i couldn't :(
then seow hwee another one!
keep on 'um chio-ing' at me wth!
i wanted to laugh out loud again hahaha.
retarded >:)
when the service ended, i went to the shaw hall, and then whoa, me and clare were the only ones there...
but they were giving out ice cream!
MILO ICE CREAM.
nom.
my favourite <3
heheheh, so i took one and left.
lunched @ mos burger with radiant and xinyi!
<3<3<3
MOS BURGER FTW.
hahahahahahahahahahaha kk im mad.
bye!
tmrw got sex ed.
okay.
lol.

1D's Got To Be You in less than 24 hours!!!!!!
#excited

:)

"No!" Jimmy protested.

THANK GOD FOR

THE END OF

EXAMS. (Y)

there's gonna be post-exam activities! yay :)
inter-class volleyball games, YAY!
strings concert, YAY!
party party and endless fun, YAY!
grooming workshop this thursday.......



























HAHAHAHA LOUIS :)

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

Tag replies:

14/09
Abigail: HI ABS! Thank you! :) A bit late reply huh. HAHA!

02/10
Abigail: Relinked!

08/10
Madeline: HEHE UPDATING NOWWW :)

HAI MY READERS! (which is probably only 1 or 2 people hahahaha)



EOYs are over.
actually no hahaha, there's still bio mcq on tuesday, which i'll be mugging for tmrw.
TO ALL THE JEALOUS PHYSICS PEOPLE, HEHEHEHE.
we have no school tmrw \m/
ok i shouldn't be so mean.
good luck for physics tmrw guys!!! (y)

well after chem and chinese papers on friday, i became mad.
like completely mad.
i was being all retarded and laughing like a mad kid after we were dismissed.
bio tuition-ed, then headed home.
tumblr-ed, youtubed and had a jolly good time online.
HAHAHA.
this is the life.
i slept like a baby.
really.

post-exam periods ROCK. :)
gonna blog again tmrw or smth.
sorry this ain't a proper post.
#nowwatching Teens Awards (with 1D) ♥
k forget it the link died.
GAHHHHHH.
OMG NEW WORKING LINK YES BRB

BYEEEEE.

A long, long marathon.

hello my deeeeeeear blog.
i haven't posted in like what... 2 months?
gosh.
school's really biting down my neck, i haven't even found time to even get proper rest.
it's so bad that i'm starting to have eyebags now oh god.
well, it's been a fruitful (mixed with awesome and crappy moments) 1 and half months?
i was really busy studying for common tests, but i guess i still haven't found my right strategy of studying.

i did pretty badly for my term 3 common tests, deproving in almost every subject except bio and hist.
with a c5 for e math, and a freaking d7 for chem, it kills me.
i studied so hard and this is the shit i get :(
d7. it's like my first ever underline in my report book.
sadly i gotta pull up my socks and work doubly hard for eoys.
and for the rest of my subjects.....
well, i'm quite sure i'm below average, and that means i gotta try even harder in term 4, which is already here.
term 3 really woke me up, but then my motivation died down again zzz.
eesh.
okay enough about the cliche and depressing stuff about studying.



on to the yays for the past month.

yes i've had great fun in pb rehearsing for teachers' day.
bonding times with mah retards and others, has definitely brightened my days though i'm stresssssed over the books ^^
thanks guys <3
sec 4 farewell was brilliant too, had loads of band/dance rehearsals just for the seniors :)
hope they enjoyed it!!!
nom-ing pastamania, glacious and studying with a3 peeps, moose and other close friends really makes my day too :)
i also watched my first movie of the year yesterday, with abs & gang ^^
i smurf all of ya + a3 peeps + retards + others hehehe <3
with all my <3ly friends + get your heart on blasting + 1d's wmyb, my life is COMPLETE.
thank you.

Enough is enough.

it's been accumulated for a week.
i've had enough, so i decided to let it all out here.

kind of decided that i'm going to make it known.
i'm not being attention-seeking or anything, but i really want to let you all know how i feel.
firstly, i have already come to accept reality, that i will always be different from every single one of you. EVERY ONE.
i have also come to realise that it'll never be possible to try and stop you all, and try to make everyone of you perfect.
who am i even to try and make people perfect?
i'm not that noble and great either, but i'm just doing my job.
sometimes i feel that you all know how i would feel if i saw you all like that, but just do it on purpose to provoke me...
i try so hard, but what do i get?
not only do you repeat it over and over again, but all i earn is your hatred, your annoyance and your cold shoulders.
though i've learnt to shut one eye at times, it just irks me to see it happening over and over again.
do you know why i scold you all except her?
that's because i care! I CARE!
i care as a close friend and that's why i want to help you change for the better.
if not, i would just leave you in the lurch.
shouldn't friends care for one another, tell you off strictly when you're wrong, and always be there for one another?
friends, are supposed to help you.
remember?
but you seem to take the criticism too hard.
why?
i guess all my effort's wasted.

secondly, there's one thing i completely dislike about odd numbers.
friends? cliques?
yes, there's bound to be some sort of division and pairing when it comes to that.
you have you, you have you, you have you and me?
to be honest i really feel like nothing but a stray dog that follows people home.
and i feel like an intruder, who cuts in and tries to fit in with any of your conversations.
i really wish you all could be more sensitive, or myself to try and be less sensitive.
i really feel lonely and left out.
and what i do, no one ever appreciates.
i've never seen any of you do a thank-you note for anything, or something encouraging when i've done countless of these for you all.
only when i be a thick-skinned person and ask from you all then will you do so.
come to think of it, i feel like i've sacrificed too much.
i am just being honest with myself, no offence intended.
i'm trying so hard to keep things together, but i'm the only one falling apart now.
none of you guys actually ever bother to start a conversation with me, and always scout off to some other place w/o even asking me.
always creating personal inside jokes that i will never understand or know of.
and when i don't look okay, what do you all do?
nothing.
just a casual question, i choose to say no, and you think i'm fine.
i've tolerated enough, and i think it's really about time i had let it all out.
do i ever mean anything to you guys?
or am i just some annoying, bossy, PMS-ing nobody to you?
after all that i've done, and if i'm that annoying and worthless in your eyes, then i'm sorry i think you don't deserve me.
well, if you care for me, then show it, okay!
just in case you can't understand how, some people build a wall around themselves to see who cares enough to tear them down.
i'm beyond my limits already.

i just wanna let you all know that i care a lot for you guys, but it's a constant one-way sacrifice that i've been making, and i'm very sick of that.
please, i really can't take it any longer.
if you really care for me as a friend then prove it through your actions.
i'm tired of all this drama.

my arms are tired of being the only one piecing back the fragments of our memories back together.

friendship's a two-way issue, and since one doesn't care, the other remaining party is going to experience nothing but heartaches.

.
.
.
.
.

maybe a song would better describe how i feel right now.
well, i've found one.
enjoy.



i hope you guys will understand.

It's been long.

hello my dear readers.
though i think i have none but still, i just felt like blogging today.
i mean like, yeah it's been ages.
well, term 3 started off like this.



and



and it got worse.
hahaha.
innoweek on the first week was pretty fun, cos' it was probably one of the most meaningful ones we've done so far.
the past years was just.....
bleh.
accomplished cos' we had 391 likes and counting :)
ultimate yay.
yes and my results for term 2 turned out to be terrible.
gotta buck up alot this term.
hope i don't get too busy with harp and pb stuff.

i'll be mia till............

O'S ARE OVER.
HAHAHAHAHA.
we'll see.

We're pilgrims on the journey of a narrow road.

hi everyone!
i know my blog's super dead but i'm here to revive it with something that changed my life :)
and that is service learning @ cambodia.
i'm really proud to say that i've been there and touched the lives of people, leaving footprints of faith and hope.

Day 1, 28 May



we all met at the airport at about 5.45am. seriously? it was so damn early. but anyway after the admin procedures like checking-in and so on, we took off for cambodia and reached at about 10+? we took a bus to pacific hotel, checked in, and had lunch at a restaurant that served singapore food. it was pretty good, cos' i expected we'd be having cambodian food the next couple of days. next we headed for a city tour and stopped by at a killing field. it was quite a horrifying sight, where there were excavated old clothes and skulls of the victims that died under the pol pot regime. :( it was a great eye-opener and i've learnt that we're very blessed to have a good government leading the country. after visiting the killing site, we headed off to the tuol sleng genocide museum. this really made my stomach flip, because what we saw was very unpleasant. there were portraits of the victims who were tortured, the actual equipment that was used for torture, and even dried up blood stains from the murderous torture on the floor tiles... it was really terrifying. after the not-so-pleasant sites, we headed off to the royal palace, a more cultural side of cambodia. the silver pagoda and the palace itself were absolutely stunning. at night we shopped at this place called supermall, where i bought ice-cream and pink shades! :D i <3 my pink shades ttm! after a long day we had team reflections and a small party, then headed off to dreamland! but while i was in the bathroom, gillian suddenly screamed and i got the shock of my life! she said there was a flying cockroach in the hotel room!!!! :O i came out with my shirt on and a towel wrapped over my butt hahahaha and tried to kill the roach with her.. i bet we made a ruckus ;) what drama!

Day 2, 29 May



awoke at 6am and went to the hotel lobby for breakfast. took a 3hr long bus ride to the homestay at baray district. it was a long and slowwww ride, but i managed to catch some sleep. no, actually alot. haha. when i woke up, the bus stopped for a toilet break and that was when i realised this was true village life. there were big empty and even barren fields, animals roaming around freely, and children with no clothes. when we arrived at the homestay, it was something i completely didn't imagine. we lived in huts with big big big big mosquito nets, and it was just... hmm. we met at a shelter and packed basic neccesities for the villagers then headed for lunch. then we had the pony cart ride!!! super duper fun! shared a cart with sheryl and madeline and the road was so bumpy my butt had a free massage teehee! it was really very touching cos' the kids would wave to you super enthusiastically even though you're a foreigner. we stopped by the fields and a boat-making area. a super fun and memorable ride :) <3 had dinner then night interaction! we taught the teens english, played many games with them. though there was a language barrier, nevertheless we still had loads of fun! :) team reflections then bedtime. it was gross cos' it was our first night there and we weren't used to the roaches, bugs, crickets and flies all around the toilets and everywhere. we were so scared of the 2 flying roaches in our hut too!!! but we still had a peaceful sleep :)

Day 3, 30 May



woke up for breakfast at solar cafe then headed out to the school to conduct our lessons! the kids were really very very enthusiastic in learning, and responded eagerly to everything we said. though there was a huge language barrier, the kids were really cute and repeated everything we said :P i had a terribly hard time coaching a boy sitting at the back on multiplication and division... i told him to group up 2 circles but he ended drawing me 2 circles instead. but i felt my efforts paid off seeing their enthusiasm to learn :') in the afternoon we took the packed items to the villagers where we could ask them any questions. for the first two houses it was pretty awkward cos' we didn't know what to ask. at the third house, we went up to view it and discovered much. the woman took only one month to build her house!!! we were done pretty early, so we spent pretty long waiting on the bus. had dinner and another session of night interaction and played even more games hehe! our group became pretty bonded :))) it was long and tiring day and again i slept very peacefully HAHAH.

Day 4, 31 May



breakfast @ solar cafe once again and today was hard work! headed off to pave a well right after breakfast and it was tough work. we carried heavy rocks to and fro, mixed the cement and sand together and scooped water up from the well. though i was drenched in sweat, i felt really good about myself because i felt like i was doing something meaningful for the villagers, and could improve their lives. :) though i was really worn out physically, mentally i was still alive and wanted to do more. after paving the wells, we went off to the same school again, to paint one of their buildings. first i took the small brush and painted the small corners of the windows and doors that the roller brushes couldn't reach. gradually i got quite tired and took a rest. i guess i had minor gastric pains as i was physically exhausted. after taking a quick bite and some water, i took over the job of the humongous rollers that were like 3m long. using those, i had to paint the very top of the walls! i had a very hard time doing so but i felt very accomplished after putting in all the hard work for these really eager kids :) we had lunch after that and since we completed our work way before time, we had loads of rest time and next we went for the ox cart ride :D it was another bumpy ride, with loads of ox dung everywhere. :P me, andrea, gillian and jasley shared a cart and we screamed all the way in fear of falling off and poor navigation! teehee, it was really the ride of my life. we filmed our roaming dv project here as well and the teachers were really funny :) dinnertime then again our last night interaction class :( i learnt quite alot of khmer words then too :) had an early night cos' we had our team reflection in the day! yayyyyyyy :-) dreamland! but we hogged mr lee's toilet once again hahaha!

Day 5, 1 June



breakfast when we woke up (as usual hahaha) and then we had our games carnival in the morning!!!! :-) it was cambodia's children's day that day and i was pretty hyped cos' our group put in alot of effort in planning the games :D the first group of kids that arrived didn't seem to understand the game and weren't as enthusiastic... but as more students came, their enthusiasm level was really raised to the maximum and laughed and had so much fun :) seeing them having this much fun really touched my heart :') after the carnival there was a prize presentation ceremony for the top students in each level and also a mini karaoke session hehe :) the kids were all really brave and sang really adorably! after that we had lunch, and off to the school to teach again. the english team took up too much time, and left the math group with only 30 mins to teach clock-reading! they were pretty distracted and hardly paid attention at all. we gave out our worksheets hastily and everyone of them were lost and didn't know how to do. after math lesson they had a break and i was so disappointed i teared. i felt like our efforts were wasted, i felt like we didn't do enough to help the children. however thanks to everyone who tried to comfort me <3 after a day of teaching we had dinner and then prepared for our much-awaited campfire! we sat in circles and got lightsticks for everybody! a little boy came to play with us and he sat on me and gillian. he was really cute and playful; he kept throwing the light stick near the fire! we totally got a shock and kept retrieving the light stick for him as he kept throwing it repeatedly. mr lee saw what happened and he came and 'confiscated' his light stick. the cute boy stared at mr lee in despair and disappointment - HIS FACE WAS SO SUPER CUTE :D i found out that his older brother, who was only a few years older than him, brought him here alone! we watched a couple of local dances and then our teams had to perform an item each. Awesome K2 went first and I got quite hyper after our random dancing :))) K3's shuffling was very cool too, and K5's performance was quite sweet ^^ now i'm addicted to party rock anthem hahaha! after campfire was a mini cambodian dance, where me, gillian, sheryl and madeline tried very hard to learn the dance moves haha! it was pretty fun! we gave our contacts to our night interaction group and took pictures with them :) it was pretty sad that we had to leave them... :'( i love my night interaction group!!!! <3 thanks so much for the memories :') it was our last night at khmer homestay and definitely the most memorable night. :)

Day 6, 2 June



we had our last breakfast/meal at the solar cafe. we finished up the PL board and left for phnom penh and the hotel. it was a 3hr bus ride and after checking in to the hotel, headed for lunch at the same restaurant that we had lunch on the first day. it was an afternoon of shopping at the central market and supermall (again). i bought another pair of shades, more ice cream, socks and a I <3 Cambodia tee :) through this i saw many people, and even children, begging for money. it kinda hurts to see such people living in poverty and have to resort to such ways and means... may god bless them and touch their hearts. after shopping we had a big big big surprise!! our celebration dinner was on a boat!!!!!!! :) boat ride ftw <3 had a great dinner and bonding time with the same party gang and then had separate team reflections. K2 also celebrated papa's birthday with a surprise cake and present from some of the K2-ers :-) papa was really touched and it was indeed a night of celebration. we exchanged cards and wrote for one another and continued doing so in the hotel. the teachers also surprised us with coconut drinks and ice-cream! thank you teachers :D when we were all done with team reflections, we partied in one another's rooms and we stayed up till 2am :P it was definitely a night to remember <3

Day 7, 3 June



had good breakfast of eggs and sausages in the hotel lobby. left for the airport at about 7.45am and before we knew it, we were on the plane back to singapore. :'( it was really a touching moment when we left cambodia as our heart was filled with so much pleasant memories. plane food was (y) btw ;-)



i've learnt so much from this trip. happiness is really simple. all you have to do is be contented with whatever you have and don't always bear grudges or complain. sometimes it's not about whether you have the latest gadgets, or the most amount of money, but it's more of making full use of whatever you have and being happy with it. learning to count our blessings and being thankful for whatever you have suddenly seems so meaningful after this service learning trip. there are so many people out there who are so much more unfortunate than you are... i thank god for whatever i have, and may whatever i have done bless and inspire the people out there in cambodia as well. i am very grateful for this amazing opportunity <3

I miss the hotel and hut stays. I miss swatting off bugs and insects off each other's shirts. I miss the delicious food at Solar Cafe. I miss my night interaction group. I miss the enthusiasm of the little children. I miss painting and paving wells. I miss sweating till we had salt marks. I miss tucking in the mosquito nets properly before sleeping. I miss looking after kids at the campfire. I miss K2's Flea Fly cheer. I miss avoiding cow dung. I miss the late-night insect-infested team reflections. I miss long bus rides. I miss screaming at insects and toads. I miss our late-night parties. I miss buying ice cream and shades at the mall. I miss waving at the children on the cart rides. I miss FIS Cambodia (Baray) 2011! <3

♥♥♥

Some days stay gold forever.

Tag replies:

03/04
Hazel: Okay!

after months of hard work.
scoldings,
blisters,
tears,
blood,
headaches,
butt aches (from sitting on chairs for too long),
laughter,
pain,
devotion,
countless practices,
nags,
sore arms and fingers,
rehearsals,
fear,
uncertainty,
and everything else we've been through.

As a harp ensemble, we've achieved much together as one, and I'm proud to say that we have achieved a Gold award for the SYF Central Judging 2011! :)
Whatever we've gone through, it was worth it, all worth it.
Thanks for all the support and encouragement from everyone, it was truly a great learning process that I've undergone.
I LOVE HARP <3

xoxo