lol at my wordplay for my title of this post but hahaha what i really meant is school is starting and i'm feeling the blues already.
i don't even know how to describe this feeling but after 8 months of holidaying, this is going to be hard to adapt to man.
4 years of new friends, new studies, new environment, new school - everything is new.
i feel like a primary 1 kid attending school for the first time ever in my life.
making new friends all over again is going to be a living nightmare.
i don't exactly regret my decision of not signing up for camps/making the effort to sign up.
i am not a camp person at all and i really hate all sorts of things to do with camps, especially with all the rumours of orientation camps being all down and dirty.
not exactly for the idea of participating in pointless games just for the sake of having fun + making friends - especially when it comes with a hefty price tag.
i don't understand why we need to pay so much just to attend a camp.
and i think making friends doesn't always have to be through a camp, i don't see why you can't make friends at school during or after class!
pardon all my ranting here, i just can't bring myself to adapt to uni life (still stuck in my jc days) which explains why i didn't bother signing up for camps/hall.
hahaha i always dread for going camps but after that i'll have camp-withdrawal symptoms really.
and i don't mind planning the camp but just not taking part in it.
throwing me into an overnight stay with people i don't really know is something i'm afraid of.
not willing to step out of my comfort zone just yet lol.
so loser me is going to school on wednesday with NO friends in my school/course, but meh who cares.
just hope i'll make some nice friends as the semester passes in uni!!!
excited at the prospect of learning about something i'm rather interested in, finally school and all that academic work is becoming more relevant to my life.
but i'm definitely dreading school still because i rly have 0 friends lololol no kidding
so many what-ifs are popping in my head right now.
what if i lose my way around campus what if i don't make any friends what if i don't do well in school what if my lecturers hate me what if i have no clothes to wear to school
LOL so many worries about school - no wonder my pimples are popping out again sigh.
countdown to school: 1 day.
final formal day of holiday is tomorrow but i have work so mehhhh not really counted.
thankfully wednesday's just all the formal talk and welcome ceremonies and that i only have half a day of orientation on thursday.
just really hope all will go well!!!
