so yes i presume that the rest of the world is asleep right now because no one has replied me on whatsapp hmmph.
it's okay, i enjoy the solitude and comfort the night has to offer.
well, so i just finished a session of sunday night baking again.
i don't know why but it has become a ritual for me this year.
to bake on sunday nights, well not every, but just, when i am in the mood to.
since there was only one day of school this week, i decided to switch on my work mode and did as much revision as i could without over-tiring myself.
so yes i dedicated my four-day break to some revision, and left my sunday night for a good baking therapy session.
tonight i baked jam-filled vanilla cupcakes with cream cheese frosting and a strawberry halve on top x
not bad an attempt huh? :)
obviously these 3 cupcakes are the prettiest, there were some where the icing just smeared badly while some of the strawberries were just really ugly hahaha.
spent a great deal of effort trying to wash up (especially the damn piping bag, urgh took me so much effort to scrub the remaining icing left...) but nonetheless it's always a good time :-)
whoa oh we don't even have to try it's always a good time~
okay sorry getting back on track.
guess i only have about 5 weeks left to promos, and that's when my fate of promotion or retention will be determined.
all i can do now is put in my best effort and let my results lead me where to go.
i honestly am not the least worried (or at least, not yet) about promos..
i don't know if it's a good or bad thing, but to me i choose to look at it on the bright side.
though i wouldn't dare to think about where i'd be next year, i wouldn't give myself the option of retaining so i'll just work hard for now :)
yup school life. boring bullshit. meh.
following this will just be a random thought or two i've had for the past few days of break.
you know, if there were one person i could choose to come to sr with me too so i'd feel less alone, i guess it'd be janice.
yes janice.
well i am quite certain she wouldn't see this, but anyway let me continue.
i would admit that we aren't the closest of friends or the best of buddies, but the fact that we were lab partners for 2 years.... well there'd be some bond right?
she's someone whom i really look up to, because she never seems to have a temper.
maybe you could say i don't know her well enough, but at least that's the vibe she gives me.
through my interaction with her in labs for the past 2 years, i am really thankful for someone who was always there for me during lessons everytime i was in a state of panic during experiments (i hate lab sessions btw).
janice, being the totally calm girl she is, would always be there to help me whenever i was in doubt.
and not to mention the time i broke her test tubes.
thank you for helping me with the clean-up too sigh guilt x1000.
ok that's besides the point.
the reason why i'd want her to be here in sr with me is because i really find her a great person to talk to.
she's just like the older sister i never had.
one who would always listen to everything i wanted to say, one who would give me great advice on almost anything.
well at least that's what i felt from that short whatsapp conversation we had a month back.
she's like my confidante, someone who was ever-so caring and was always there to just... listen.
i don't know why but all the more because she's currently in tpjc's guitar ensemble, all the more i feel that she should have been here in sr too.
i really really really wished she were here with me.
though we wouldn't be classmates, we'd probably be in the same cca and at least i feel comfortable enough to be there.
i honestly love her company because she's someone i can really be free with but at the same time, have a real serious talk.
well i guess it's fate that we wouldn't be in the same school, but at least i know we are bonded together by a common aspect and that is our cca.
maybe another reason why i'd love for us to be in the same school is probably because i want to repay all her kindness hahaha she's been too nice to me over the past 2 years i feel so bad T_T
nonetheless, i hope you're doing well janice!
since i can't make it up to you through actions, i guess i'd do it here over a short blog post, because i truly am, very thankful for you and all that you've done :-)
hope you're having fun in school too, catch up soon ok~
xoxo your last lab partner of your life since you don't step into labs anymore hehe