hello pretty skinny beautiful amazing people
it's been donkey years ago since i blogged.
bloody prelims were so damn demoralising i swear.
this whole week felt like hell.
2 papers everyday, 8 papers at a shot this whole week.
i nearly died in that avalanche of papers.
thank god i was fit enough to last through this whole shit, staying up late to study till 1am...
so tgif.
IT'S FRIDAY, FINALLY.
this week of hell is finally over and i can catch up on my sleep, but at the same time recharge my batteries to study for the tests next week.
anyway, i think i'm not even gonna get any As this prelims, not to mention even any Bs.
if i can even pass all my subjects i'd be content already.
ss was so screwed i can't even.
history was HECK omg southeast asian history is the worst crap ever.... even the modern world paper was hard.e math wasn't even hard, but i had many undone questions and lost 25 marks today already sigh sigh sigh let's just hope i pass.a math omg. kill me nowwwww it was.... sigh ok gotta work harder for next week's paper 2.lit was fine. FINE. and plus i didn't even study for it. wth logic please!chem was literally crap i just guessed my way through the entire paper. confirm plus chop f9 HAHAHAHA paper 1 can't even save me anymore.
my only hope left is bio....
which i hope doesn't screw me upside down inside out like ALL the other papers did.
if o's is THIS hard i am dead meat.
well well can't wait for prelims to be over so i can STUDY.
i am really going to work hard.
i don't want to have any regrets like i did that time during PSLE.
but what am i? i'm stupid, so even if i put in a 101% into studying there's only so much i can achieve.
i just don't want to disappoint anyone, myself, my parents and all they've done for me.
i really wanna do well to make them proud.
there's so many people whom i wanna prove wrong too, those who keep telling me can't i am going to show you i can.
i honestly hate it when i put in so much effort but the result comes out as shit.
sometimes i wished i was smart, but it's okay, i'll work doubly hard to make up for this shit brain of mine.
prelims was definitely another big major wake-up call.
4 more months.
i want to do this.
i need to do this.
i can do this.
new phone wallpaper.
the previous one "the pressure is good for you" worked no charm.
even my mom thought i got "too pressured" during the prelim period and thought i needa loosen up lol.
credits to tumblr for these motivational typographies :)
i honestly miss you so much. why did things have to change? was it me? was it you? or was it us? i hope this will all heal soon. x
